When Ru died I never assisted to his funeral mainly because my parents didn't let me . I felt extremely bad for not going afterwards , they tried to make me forget about his funeral the next day but it never left my mind . He was one of my closest friends when I was 6 probably one of the truest friends I have ever had in my childhood . How I wish he survived so he could be here till this day . Even though this happened a long time ago I feel so fucking guilty still .