Katsuki

I sat there quietly as they slept, unable to fall asleep myself

I see Toshi finally fell asleep and I sigh quietly

Finally they are asleep.

I carefully climb out from them and hop on the ground next to the bed and look back at them

Denki and Eiji moved and hugged Toshi who was in the middle as they slept

Cute.

I sigh and rub my eyes and grab my hoodie throwing it on and get my shoes on

I grab the room key and walk out making sure the door was locked.

I go the elevator and go to the top floor then I see door to the roof and credit card the lock and go in and close the door and go to the roof

I get up there and take a deep breath of the chilly winter air

I walk to the edge and sit down looking out in the distance silently

Am I doing enough for them? Toshi seems to be relaxing more, Eijiro seems himself and Denki seems like Denki. But why do I feel like I'm not doing enough...

I look down sighing and I feel arms wrap around me and I glance behind me seeing red hair

"Hey Eijiro." I mumble and he gives me a soft smile but looks surprised

"Hi Katsuki" He says not saying his nickname he has and I realize I didn't say his either

"What are you doing up here?" I ask and he pulls me off the edge and I stand up and look at him

"Sorry, but I saw you weren't there and you have a fascination with roofs" He says and I snort

"Its peaceful I can think up here.." I say quietly and he looks at me worried

"What's going on?" He asks softly and I hesitate and sigh

"I don't feel like I'm doing enough for you 3, I don't know." I mumble and Eijiro looks confused

"You do so much for us. We all love you so much. Toshi was telling me earlier he finds you super sweet. You know Denki adores you and you know I admire you so much, Katsuki the only one who thinks you aren't doing enough is you." He says and I stare at him wide eyed

"Y-your right...I just want to be the best boyfriend, I was already worried when we got together. Now I'm worried about all 3 of you. I know you went through some shit and Toshi definitely went through shit. And I know neither of you are ready to talk about it. Denki has anxiety galore that he tries to hide and I just wanna be good for you guys ." I say and he pulls me in a hug catching me off guard

"People who say you arent sweet never met you, you're so sweet and caring. Don't stress over us okay? We can handle our own battles. Besides I'm fine now. We just need you." He says and I give him a little smile

"Alright shitty hair" I say and he grins at me and gives me a big kiss on the lips

"There you are Katsu, you know you should show this soft side to the other 2" he said and I raise an eyebrow

"Oh really? Trying to expose me?" I joke and he elbows me a little

"Oh come on Toshi and Denki already adore you this will make them melt." He laughs and I roll my eyes with a smirk

"Maybe." I say and he shakes his head making his Red hair go in his face

I reach over and move it out of his eyes tucking it behind his ear and he looks at me and a soft blush goes on his face and I smile at him

"Your cute Shitty Hair" I say and he looks away shyly

"See your soft with me." He points out and I sigh

"I'm getting there, you know it takes me a bit to be that way with people. But I'm getting there okay." I say and he smiles and kisses my cheek making my face heat up and I look up to the sky

"We better get back" I say and he laughs a little

*trigger warning, nightmares and mention about past sexual and physical abuse*

"We should. It's almost 3 and I'm curious if Toshi will wake up again." He says and my mind flashes to my purple hair boyfriend

"Aizawa says he wakes up every night at that time." I say as we walk back down

"It worries me. I found out he goes to therapy." Eiji said and I shrug at that

"We kinda figured he went through some stuff in foster homes. I'm not surprised." I say and he nods but has a look on his face

"Katsuki, I've been worried...do you think he was abused?" He asks and I take a deep breath

"From what I observed...I wouldn't be surprised." I say stiffly and my heart started pounding

I ever meet the person who laid a hand on him I'll-

"Katsuki is that screaming?" Eijro asks as we get to our room

I hear hysterical crying from our room and I unlock the door and run in and my eyes widen at the scene in front of me

Toshi was sitting against the head board screaming as tears flooded down his face and Denki was sitting from across from him at a distance trying to talk to him

"Hitoshi it's me Denki, your boyfriend. Baby its me it's not him." Denki was saying

I was fucking right

I walk over and touch Denki shoulder and he shocks me out of panic and I draw my hand back quickly

"Shit sorry sorry!" He says and eyes looked worried

"Your okay Denki but the hell is happening?" I say trying to stay calm

Denki looked torn looking at me "He had a bad nightmare." He said holding back information

I looked at Toshi and I see Eijiro going to reach out for him

"E don't!" Denki says I go to grab Eijiro but he touches Toshi shoulder and Toshi screams and starts swinging at Eijiro

Eijiro hardens his body and I grab him taking him away

"Don't touch me please I'll do better please." Toshi cries hiding his body with arms and legs

Don't tell me...

I look at Denki and he has tears in his eyes

"Damn it" He mumbles and I look at Eijro and he has the same troubled look

"Take Denki and calm him down okay. Let me handle this" I say and he nods and gently takes Denki hand but Denki retracts it away and hugs himself

"Katsuki has this okay?" He whispers keeping his hands to himself and Denki nodded looking defeated

Eijro takes him to living room closing the door

I look back at Toshi who was whimpering and cowering on the bed and I slowly walk towards the bed

"Hey Toshi it's me, it's Katsuki, Kat." I say as gently as I can

He doesn't budge. Still sobbing like he couldn't hear me

I slowly get on the bed sitting on my knees and he scrambles against the bed frame his breathing labored

Fucking hell...he wasn't just abused was he? He wouldn't freak out this bad by me just sitting on the bed if that was the case

"Toshi it's just me. Kat, I'm not gonna hurt you." I say softly and he quiets for a second.

"I'm not gonna cut my hair again I promise..don't touch me know more pleade" he whimpers and my heart shattered right then and there

"I'm not. I'm not okay? Brainwash it's Kat. I would never hurt you or touch you badly Kitten." I say and when he heard his nickname he looked up at me and stared at me

"...K-kat?" He stutters his purple eyes recognizing me and I sighed in relief

"Yes its me Brainwash, your safe" I say and he immediately crawls into my lap clinging to me

"I'm s-so-sorry I'm s-so-sor-sorr-sorry" He says breaking down as I held him and I tighten my grip on him

"Don't apologize, we can talk about it tomorrow I'm just glad you're okay Toshi." I say quietly and he just cries in my chest

"When I'd cut my hair he would grab me and tell me 'I'm gonna show you how much of a girl you really are' then h-he...he he." Toshi stuttered over his words and I shushed him

"I understand. You don't need to say it love." I say and he takes heavy breaths calming down

We sat in this position for awhile until finally he passed out from exhaustion

I held him for 10 more minutes after that afraid he wake up like this again. Then I finally laid him down and tucked him in and kissed his head

I leave the room closing the door and I see Denki on the couch hugging his knees and Eiji just sits across from him not sure what to do

They look up when I enter and Denki jumps up

"Is he okay?" He asks and I see the tear stains on his cheek and I pull him in my arms surprising him

He hesitates for a second but relaxes against me and rest his head on my chest and rest my chin on his head

"He's okay. He passed out but he finally recognized me. He fell asleep with me holding him." I say and I feel Denki do a sigh of relief

"He told you didn't he..." he asks and I sigh and pull away

"Yeah. Basically." I say and Denki hugs himself

Eijiro steps in "tell you what?" He asks worried and Denki looks at me and look at Eijiro

"Toshi was sexually abused." I mutter and Eijiro eyes widen and turned pale

"No..." he says and Denki was taking deep breaths

"I wonder if this has to do with the conversation from earlier.." he says and Eijiro look at him

"What conversation?" Shitty Hair asks and Denki hesitates and sighs defeated

"When you guys went swimming and I was waiting for Toshi...he brought up a sexual joke I made with you this morning." He says looking at me and I think back and recall it

"Yeah? Did that trigger anything?" I asked worried and he shakes his head

"No, but he brought up the topic of sex in general. I was honestly nervous when he brought it up. I don't want him to think we were forcing him in anything. But anyways, he was thinking about it but...he wanted his first consensual time to be with only me. But he was afraid of hurting your guys feelings." Denki said and Eijiro and I look at each other

"We wouldn't be hurt." Eijiro said and I nodded

"I get his place, you were the person he truly trusted with that information. You know everything. I can see why he would want his first time with you. Eiji was my first." I say and Eijiro looked at me surprised

"You didn't tell me that." He said surprised and I panic for a sec and clear my throat

"Not the time Shitty Hair. Anyways, so do you think the topic of sex triggered him?" I asked and Denki nodded

"I'm not the smartest but when it comes to Toshi or you guys I do tend to pay more attention okay. But I know it bugged him earlier." He said and he hugged himself again and I look at him softly

"Look, it's been a long night. I told him we would talk more tomorrow." I say and pull him and Eijiro in my arms

"That's a good idea." E said and Denki nodded

"Should we leave the bed to Toshi?" Denki asked and I shake my head

"He is gonna already wake up embarrassed. I think leaving him by himself will make him jump to conclusions" I say and Denki nodded and pulls away

"I'm gonna go to the bathroom real quick ill meet you guys in the bedroom in a bit" He says quietly and heads to the bathroom

I feel Eijiro eyes on me and I groan a bit and look at him

"I didn't tell you because it was your first time to and I didn't want you nervous." I say and he gave me a look

"The truth?" He asks and I sigh giving up on covering it

"I talked a big game and I didn't want you to find out and think less of me" I admitted and his gaze turned shocked

"Katsuki I would never in a million years think less of you over something like that." He said and I hung my head

"I know...I'm sorry." I mumble and he hugs me tightly

"I forgive you. I love you Katsu." He says and I kiss his flat red hair

"I love you too. Come on let's get some sleep." He says and grabs my hand dragging me to the room Denki was already Cuddled up to Toshi holding him tightly

Eijiro goes on Toshi other side and cuddles on the other side of Toshi and I go and lay behind Denki and reach my arm over all them holding them all closer

"Love you Kacchan, Love you E" I hear a mumble from Denki

"Love you Denks" I hear from Eijiro and I relax a little

"I love you guys too"

Hitoshi Pov

I wake up feeling warm and I open my eyes and last night's events come and flood my head

Shit, shit, shit, shit!

They know. They know Oh God

I notice how Denki and Eiji hold me close to them and I see Kat arm over all of us

Kat...I remember...he was so different last night with me...

I sigh quietly and I hear movement and I close my eyes faking to sleep

I hear someone get off the bed and seeing how Eiji and Denki are holding my waist I think it's Kat

"2pm? I've never slept this late." I hear him say and I was kinda shock

I hear a moment of silence then I felt him check my head like he was making sure I didn't have a fever and I held as still as I could before he spoke

"Toshi I know your awake. You can stay here but I'm going to the store to get some food if you want to come." He says softly and I took a deep breath and sigh

"I wanna come with you..." I mumble and open my eyes again and he gives me a soft look and I wiggle put of Denki and and Eiji grip slide of the bed practically making Kat snort

"Get dressed okay?" He says and I nod and grab my duffle bag and go to the bathroom

He is being so gentle with me today...I didn't make things worse did I. He didn't even call me Brainwash....

I shake my head to stop over thinking and get dressed throwing on my binder, black jeans, and my hoodie

I look in the mirror and looking at my hair and anxiety seeps in me

I wish I brought the gel now

I sigh and throw my hood up over my head and walk out

He was waiting at the front door and his eyes shoot to my hood but doesn't say anything

Right I told him that last night. Oh God have mercy on me please

He grabs my hand startling me out of my thoughts and we leave the room locking the door

"I left them a note saying we'll be back." He says quietly and yawns and I glance down

"Okay." I whisper and I feel him look at me and he sighs and changes direction on where we are headed

Not paying attention I don't realize we are on the roof until the winter breeze blows my hood off

He then picks me up and sits me on this slight high ledge so I'm stuck looking directly at him

"Listen, Brainwash we love you. Nothing about your past or anything is gonna change that. Are we gonna talk about what happened last night? Yes we are. Probably after breakfast. But don't think for one second what you tell us today is gonna change our minds on how much we love you." He says looking directly in my eyes

I stare back at his crimson eyes and immediately lean in and kiss him which I hear a surprised sound from him but he relaxes and stands between my legs wrapping his arms around my waist

"I love you Katsuki" I whisper and he sighs and gives me a smile

"I love you too Hitoshi. And it felt very weird calling you that." He says and I laugh lightly

"It was weird hearing it. Heck I find it weird hearing you call me Toshi." I say and he shrugs

"That's what we generally call you. Well I call you Brainwash. Shitty Hair calls you baby a lot but he'll switch to Toshi. Denki I only hear him call you that except times he calls you Kitten." Kat says and I smile a bit

"I like it when you call me Brainwash. But I've heard you call me Kitten too." I said and he nods

"Its not hard. You act like one. But yeah I prefer Brainwash." He says and kisses my head and sighs

"Come on, let's get breakfast" He says and picks me up and throws me on his back

"Kat what are you doing?" I laugh and I hear him chuckle

"Your gonna wanna hold on." He says and he starts making a run for the roof edge

"Katsuki stop!!" I yell and grip on him closing my eyes as he leaps off

After a few seconds I hear explosions and I open my eyes and we are flying through the air

I hear laughing loudly and I sit up a little as he flies through the city

I laugh a little and he turns his head with a smirk

"Not so fucking bad now is it?!" He yells so I can hear him and I grin at him

"This is awesome!" I shout and he chuckles and then flies down and and lands behind a restaurant

"First time I let someone fly on my back." He comments and I smile at that

"So I'm special?" I joke and he smirks and leans close to my face

"Very special" He says and I turn dark read making him smirk more

"Come on le-" his phone rings and he looks at it

"Its Deku" He says and he answers it and puts it on speaker

"Hey Nerd, I'm kinda busy is this important? Your on speaker I'm with Toshi." He says and I hear Shouto in the background talking to someone

"Hey Toshi! But no it's not important I wanted to see how you guys were. U-uh I hope your having fun sorry to bug y-you." He said sounding nervous and me and Kat frown

"Izuku I thought-?" I hear Shouto ask in the background but Izuku cut him off

"Anyways I'll let you guys go. Call you later bye!" He says quickly and hangs up

Kat and I stare at the phone and Kat face gets worried and he sighs

"One thing at a time. But he better believe I'm finding out one way or another." He says serious and I nod

"I hope nothing happened" I say and Kat nodded

"If it crazy dangerous Icyhot would have said something" He said and I nod knowing how protective Shouto is

"Alright well let's get breakfast, well lunch.. I'm really hungry" I say and he nods and grabs my hand

We walk into a restraunt and order 4 to go meals and hurry back to the hotel

I unlock the door and I see Denki and Eiji cuddling on the couch

I felt a spike of anxiety run through me but I push it to the side

"Hungry?!" I call heading to the dining area and their heads pop up and look at us

"We all got the same thing hope your not picky" Kat said coming up behind me

"Nope just starving" Denki said with a half smile and he kisses my head gently then sits next to me

Eiji kisses my cheek and Kats then sits on the other side of me and Kat sits between Eiji and Denki

They start eating and I start soon after. First time none of them looking at me weird

We all eat quietly, I feel a tense atmosphere making my stomach turn and I eat half of my meal before I push it away

"Toshi?" Eiji asks and I shake my head at him getting up and getting my food in its to go box and putting I up

"I'm gonna go take my T." I say quietly as my stomach turns more and head to the bathroom in our room and close the door

I hear them start talking and it sounded like scolding from Kat and I hug my knees and bury my face in them

"This is ridiculous." I mutter to myself and I sigh

"Stupid nightmare. I was gonna tell them but on my own terms." I scold it like it could actually be scolded

I hear them enter the bedroom and I they all talk quietly and I sigh getting up

"Guess I should take my T then come face the music" I say to myself

I quickly get that done and head back into the bedroom where they were all sitting on the couch in there and I sit next to Denki and lean into his side

He wraps an arm around me and kisses my head and I see them all with a ready to listen look

"Okay, so this all started back when I was 3, my parents died in a house fire.."
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That's it for this chapter wow. A lot to unpack

Now as I said before this is the only time I will make a big thing about Toshi trauma. Will it be mention from time to time? Yes. Will it be a concern when sexual parts come up in the book? Yes. But will I make it a huge deal. No not really. After this part I plan on Kirishima to open up after Toshi and Denki with his anxiety. Katsuki is for later on. He is gonna be the one to not want to say anything about his issues for awhile

As I mentioned there will be sexual scenes in this book. Coming up soon actually. I have a plan and all I will say it is just Denki and Toshi for now. As Toshi gets use to being in a loving consensual sexual environment he only wants Denki

I was thinking after Toshi got comfortable with Denki and after his first time that will have a sexual scene with Katsuki. Then with Eiji. Before all of them together. In this way he can get comfortable with each of them which they are all fine with! Because they know it's hard for him.

Toshi is the main character so I know I swapped into Kat POV. That will be rare. I might do each of them atleast once in this book but it will mostly be Toshi

I think that's all I wanted to say so thank you for reading!