Seriously, ignore this chapter, it's just meaningless vent. I'm okay, I just need to burn off some stress.
*inhale*

I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him I can't tell him

I
Cant
Tell
Him

I can't tell him that I don't want to talk to him; it'll break his heart
I can't tell him that I want to be alone; it'll worry him
I can't tell him that I feel guilty; it'll make him feel worse

I just can't

My anxiety is too high

My love is too strong

I...

I........

........

I don't want to hurt him.