You know they said to never run away from your problems? Well, that's exactly what you should have done.

Jungkook had stopped his tracks as soon as the car collided with you, he took shaky breaths and had hesitated to walk up to you, because you were unmoving. The driver had stopped and walked out of his car, exclaiming "Holy shit!" and whipped out his phone.

With his mouth agape and people starting to crowd around you, he immediately ran to where you lay, although he did it with slight hesitation. He was scared. He was still figuring out what the fuck just happened. He pulled you safely into his arms and rested your head on his thighs as he crouched next to you, the careless driver already on the phone and explaining the situation.

While everyone was screaming and begging the ambulance to go faster, Jeongguk was frozen.

His fingers ghosted your arms as he looked at your torn dress. The dress you had just bought the morning for the occasion, for his fake girlfriend plan. He didn't know what he was feeling, he was confused. He had just rejected your love and you ran out, and here, in the middle of people, he was holding you close as if you were his love, and not just a best friend. A lump formed on his throat when the smell of blood hit his nose, and he choked, tears threatening to leave his eyes. You and him had an unspoken rule, and that was to not fall in love. If only he known from the start, this wouldn't have happened. He wouldn't have been sitting here, in the cold of the night, surrounded by strangers, and an ambulance on its way. It was his fault, but it had also been yours.

So there, you in his arms, he had cried.

"(Y/n), you idiot"

He always had thought after he would graduate, you and him would remain friends, and the feeling would be mutual. But now, seeing you in his arms, your lips slightly parted and your hair a mess.

Oh how wrong he had been

-

When you finally came too, you were pulled in a bone crushing hug from your mother, who had explained that it took you two days to finally wake up, and that the accident had caused you broken ribs and a slight concussion. But what you didn't expect, at all. Was Jeongguk,

Not being there.

You had insisted your mother to go home and sleep because she looked like she had done nothing but cry for two whole days, and when you were finally alone had you thought about the events that led to being in the hospital.

"I love you"

You sighed deeply, wanting to scream but not wanting to alert the nurses. You looked at the slightly opened blinds, the moonlight poured in and little dust floated around and you looked at the wall clock that showed it was two in the morning, and if Jeongguk was actually sleeping with Jaeun like he said. Had he really just ditched you, like he apologized for? When he ran after you, did he follow you? Did he even consider trying to date you before he made the conclusion to reject you?

So all you did was cry. Cry because of your stupid actions had not only caused you broken ribs, but it had cost you your friendship, the friendship that every girl envied, the friendship where you talk about sex and It won't be as awkward, the friendship where you promised not to fall in love, but did.

And as you cried into your arm, all you heard for hours was the sound of the clock, but then you didn't hear the door open.

You took a shaky breath, thinking it was a nurse to check up on you, but when you saw the familiar brown hair, you choked.

"(Y/n)"

You stayed silent and unmoving, pretending to be asleep as you faced away from him, shock written on your face, because why was he here as ass crack of the morning?

He sat on the chair next to you, the chair that your mother had sat on for two days waiting for you. And you just freeze, hoping he'd leave and think you still unconscious.

Jungkook was wearing an oversized hoodie and sweatpants, his hair was a mess, as if he had just woken up from sleep, and he just blinked at you.

"(Y/n)" He repeated, and took your free hand, rubbing his thumb over your knuckles. The thing couples would do when falling asleep, and the small gesture comforted you, and all you did was stare at your hand under your eyelids, and stayed silent.

"I'm sorry" He whispered, loud enough for you to hear "I-I'm so sorry"

You didn't say anything, you didn't even breathe.

"I shouldn't have taken you to that party, I shouldn't have taken advantage of you, If- if only I known, (Y/n), If only you just told me" he said, his voice breaking by the end of it "If only you just told me, I'd- I'd-" He stopped, even Jeongguk didn't know what he'd do if you told him, and you decided to turn to him when he stopped talking.

"What would you do, Jungkook?" You whispered, finally seeing his tear streaked face under the moonlight, his eyes widened, realizing you were awake the whole time, and his hand retreated back as if he had touched something hot. The tension was thick in the room as you and Jungkook stared at each other, obviously wanting to say something, but not wanting to say the wrong thing. So you just started

"I fucking hate you"

Jungkook looked down, as if he was ashamed, as if he was getting scolded, but you didn't stop there

"I fucking hate the fact that I promised to not fall in love with you, and I hate the fact that you'd never feel the same, I hate how you just talk about fucking every girl in the school like its normal, and I hate you"

He nodded sadly "I know you do" He paused "I deserve it"

You stared back at the ceiling, ending your conversation there. But Jungkook suddenly stood up.

"I'm just, I'm sorry I didn't realize it sooner" he said, walking over to the other side of the bed just to cup my face "I'm sorry, it was all my fault you- you almost died" He said, tears streaming down his face.

When a boy cries for you, it always feels good.

"Hey hey.." You shushed him, wiping his tears away with your thumb, "Don't cry, Jungkook, this is embarrassing" You tried to joke, but it came out as a choked sob, because seeing him so sad like this literally hurts you, even if you hate him, he was always going to be your best friend, after all.

He took your hand that was on his face, and suddenly, he leant in and pressed his lips on yours, only this time, did it feel real. You didn't even hesitate to kiss him back, and you realized now, that you had probably not completely fucked up, because when he suddenly pulled back when you kissed him, he had blurted out

"I love you too" He said, and cut you off before you said anything "And as cliché as it is, I didn't reject you (Y/n), you didn't even let me finish what I said before you ran off" He whispered, tracing your lips with his fingers

"But what about Jaeun? I thought you fell in love with her?" You said, your voice soft and small, and Jungkook's heart broke, because he couldn't lie, he did fall in love with her before you, and he had realized how messed up it was to tell you the truth, as if he hadn't already felt guilt eating him away for being the reason you were here.

"I did" he replied shortly "I did, but I realized that I should have just loved the person that stayed with me through high school, and through all the heart breaks I've been through before, and stay with her, instead of sleeping with different girls, (Y/n), I know this is really fucked up, and you can slap me anytime, but-"

Before he continued, you pulled him into another kiss, and this time, he was the shocked one.

"Just shut up and kiss me, Jungkook"