Neil's Pov

A week has passed since my another attempt to end my life. Life? But I am synonym to living hell. Darkness has shrouded by soul through its magic wand, not letting the light peep in. The world seems just an illusion of eyes. The weight of everything seemed to press on my shoulders, making me struggle to even take a step  forward. It's been two years since I have crawled into an invisible shell, hard to break and tough to reach. However until last week, since I ended up in this hospital, I have never felt so relaxed. Dr Avni, my psychiatrist urf my sachhi dost as she claims herself to be, came like a storm. But as they say, not all storms are bad. Some storms indeed cools down the gloomy soul.

Ajooba she is! She forcefully made myself her friend. Everyday after her duty, she used to visit me during evening hours and that particular time out of the 24 hrs span, was most awaited in my life. Though I don't show this out, but I enjoy her presence. She wanted me to speak my heart out, to throw out the whirlpool of emotions that has been tormenting me.

But everytime I start recollecting those worse days, I could feel my past ghosts parading around me. The glimpses of those past days, the sneaky reminders of those horrific nights made my entire body go numb. But Miss Avni always had her alternatives ready! She asked me to write down what my heart wanted to blow out but my lips are at loss of expressions. Years after, again I am holding the pen and the blank pages are staring at me.  Look at my fate, it has again brought me to the edge of something that I have left years ago.

My hands are shaking. My sight is getting blurry.The ink got scattered. I can't. I really can't.

Pov end
The thought process of Mr Khanna got interrupted by the sudden clicking of the door. He hide those pen and paper under the bedsheet.

Avni :"Good Evening Mr Khanna..I hope I didn't disturb you."

Neil:" No doctor.."

Avni :"That's good.. I hope you are feeling better now.. So, apke liye mere Paas do news hai? Ek good and second bad.. Now its your take konsa pehele sunna chahenge aap?"

Neil :"Let's start with the good !"

Avni :"Okay so good news is kal apko discharge mil jayega.. Isn't that amazing?"

Neil face fell down.. The news that should have made him happy rather made him go through an anonymous emotion. He registered a fake smile on his face and asked "And what's the bad news!"

Avni :"Bad news is aapko ghar Jaake bhi shanti nahi milegi mujhse. Mai every two days apke ghar ayungi  sessions ke liye. We could have done it in hospital but I believe the environment a person can heal, couldn't be any better than home. So ready for this?"

The disappointment that the otherwise good news has brought on his face lighted it up immediately. Strange right!

Neil:" Thank you doctor! "

Avni :" Thank you? Mai apko pareshaan karne ke liye apke ghar tak aa rahi hu par aap hai thank you bol rahe hai. Anyway, I hope you remember the deadline for submission?"  she lifted her eyebrows,just like a professor demanding the immediate submission of presentation for the next semester.

Neil :" Mujhse nahi hoga Doctor..I can't. "

Avni :" Koi Baat nahi.. Take your time.. There is no stress  on you. But let me tell you  one thing. Emotions ko jitna apne andar daba ke rakho ge, utna Dard hoga.You know when I was young my mom used to narrate me verses from Geeta. One of them says : Your mind can either be your friend or enemy. It depends on how you train it! Whether you let it travel forward or close it, letting the past dwell, choice rests on you! "

Neil nodded and said :" I will try my level best."

Avni :" That's good! My mom says trying is equivalent to success.. So that's enough. I am grateful that you cooperated so well. By God's grace, very soon, we will win over this."
Neil nodded lightly.

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The day of discharge

Nurse:" Mrs Khanna,Doctor Avni has called you to her cabin. "

Shweta:" Ji I am coming.. Tillu beta thora rest Kar Le.. Mai abhi aa rahi hu. "

In Avni's Cabin

Avni :"Come in Mrs Khanna.Please take a seat."

Shweta:"Thank you."

Avni :"So, as you might have already known. Every second day, I would come for therapy sessions at your house. And I want your help for my treatment procedure. I know there might be certain apprehensions in your mind regarding the protection of your private details but let me assure me, the treatment and the related happenings will stay between me and the patient. "

Shweta :"Yes doctor Sure. Baas aap hi meri akhri umeed hai.. Mere bete ko bacha lijiye,mere jeene ki buniyad ko tootne se rok lijiye. Mai zindagi bhar apki abhari rahungi.."

She folded her hands. Tears began to spill out from her helpless eyes. The mother in her couldn't see the excruciating pain her child was undergoing.

Avni :" Mrs Khanna.. Please don't fold your hands.. Mai samaj sakti hu ki aap kis halat se guzar rahe ho.. But aap sochiye agar aap toot jayenge toh apke bete ko kaun sambhalega. Upcoming days are gonna be hell difficult for him, for you and for us.. Iss Dard se ubhar ne ke liye kabhi kabhi Hume usse rasto se guzar na parta hai. So be strong! "

Shweta:" Thank you so much Doctor. "

Avni :" Thank you ki zarurat nahi hai.. Baas aap apna aur Mr Khanna ka dhyan rakhiye.. And excuse me.. I have to go and see two patients. Meet you tomorrow. "

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Shayari