I know I am an adult

and I need to be practical

and think of my needs.

not my wants.

I'm a grown-ass woman

and I have to think of others.

But dammit!

Let me have my tantrum!

Let me have a moment.

Let me be selfish for once.

I want a relationship.

I want a commitment.

I want romance.

I want goodnight texts.

and "I Love Yous" at

the end of phone calls.

I want sappy Facebook posts

and to stop feeling left out of life.

I want to stop holding myself back

all the goddamn time.

I want to feel like I am valid-

like I am allowed to have feelings.

I'm tired of pretending I'm fine

when I'm really fucking not.

I needed a moment.

This will do.