I've spent 13 years waiting for this moment

and now that it's finally here,

I'm terrified I am going to blow it.

There are no restarts, redos, or second chances.

This is it.

It either happens or it doesn't.

I've trusted my gut all this time

that it was leading me in the right direction,

but what if it was wrong?

Do I keep waiting for the right moment?

Do I keep waiting to see if

everything I've dreamed about

lives up to its reality?

or do I move on so that

when the shoe inevitably drops,

it hurts a little less?