What she looks like in this chapter (the past):

Ignore the sword.

I was surrounded by darkness, but I could smell something. It smelt like something was burning. I forced myself to open my eyes, and found that I was in my old bedroom. I got out and walked to my door opening it. I saw fire everywhere. My first instinct was to go to Ciels' room. I run as fast my legs can go. I slam his door open to find him not in his bed. I frowned, fear rising inside me. "Ciel!" I screamed not getting an answer I ran to my parents room, still calling for Ciel. I opened my parents door to find them laying there bloody and lifeless.

My heart shattered into a million pieces. Tears streaming down my face, as I start screaming for my brother, praying to god he is safe and alive.

After running around, smoke got into my lungs and I had to get out of the Manor. I didn't want to believe it, but my brother was dead just like my parents.

I ran out the kitchen door into the garden. I turned and looked back to see everything engulfed in flames. I went to turn and run into the street, but someone grabbed my arm and covered my mouth with a cloth of some sort. I kicked and fought as much as I could, but I ended up getting sleepy and soon seemed to fall unconscious. Thinking to myself 'why me God? What did I do to deserve this?'

I opened my eyes and sat up. Or tried to anyway I was still strapped down. I was sweating. This happens everytime I sleep. I always have the same nightmare every night. I sighed laying my head back down exhausted even though I just woke up. I closed my eyes and let a single tear roll down my cheek.

'Help me'