Dear Diary,

You probably had an idea already on how my day went today.

It was a rollercoaster ride. Again.

Diary, this is just a gut feeling ha! Posible ba na si Natoy at Kiefron ay iisa? It's just that, ang uncanny ng mga coincidence or maybe I'm just overthinking. Kasi ang imposible rin naman na magugustuhan niya ako but there is also a possibility.

Remember?

Kanina, he performed, he sang a Silent Sanctuary song ----

Feeling ko guni-guni ko lang 'yon pero, it felt like he was confessing and the thing that's bothering me is when he sang the "Kung maging tayo, sayo lang ang puso ko." part.

Diary, believe me! He was staring at me. I'm sure that he was staring right in my eyes. Nagtama ang mga mata namin eh!

At hindi ko rin itatanggi. Kinilig ako. Well, slight lang naman.

There's something in his voice na parang hinehele ako at parang ramdam ko na mahal niya ako. Alam ko ang weird pero sa atin lang 'to.

Ngayon ko lang rin nalaman na maganda pala ang boses niya. Nung highschool kasi ay pasaway siya siya, siya rin ang pasimuno ng ingay at gulo sa kabilang section. Magkaiba kasi kami ng section pero nakilala ko siya nung naging kami ni Samuel. At ngayon ko lang rin nalaman na sikat pala talaga siya.

Walang bahid na pasaway na Kiefron ang Kiefron ngayon.

Pero naalala ko rin noon, nakikita ko siya minsan na may bitbit na bag ng guitar. Ewan. Wala kasi akong pake sa mundo noon.

I stalked him when I got home. Napunta ako sa tiktok niya.

What the hell! He is so popular. I never knew, I never really got the chance to know him. He has thousands or millions of followers, I think? Hindi ko kasi tinandaan.

Kinakabahan pa ako no'n. Nagpupunas kasi ako ng lamesa habang nagpeperform siya tapos ang mga tingin niya, parang nanunusok. I tried to remain calm lalo na't madaming tao ang namamatyag sa mga kilos namin.

Kahit nagpupunas ako ng lamesa,ang tenga ko naman ay nakikinig a kaniya.

I admit, I felt butterflies but it immediately went away when Samuel and Ericka arrived.

Wala naman na akong naramdaman.

Love? Betrayal? Anger? Wala.

But I still felt pain. Not in the way na nasasaktan ako because mahal ko pa o ano. Nasasaktan ako dahil I lost him, not just a lover but as a friend and an ally. Tanggap ko na with no bitter feelings.

May tuldok na talaga ang sa amin ni Samuel and I guess that's it.

Free from pain,
Kryiella.