it is not that there are voices inside of my mind, head, brain
it is how there is a constant thought of just to "shut up"
how do i react to this
well i get louder and louder
but when you can not be loud, another voice, your own, tries to drown out the thought
so your voice screams on the inside and eventually you get tired of screaming so you let the thought become a reminder
and with that reminder you know that even though you have paint on your face and you mask your body with clothes that you do not need
you know that a reminder could pop up at any time
it could be there all the time
or rarely there
but when it is there you paint a bigger smile on your face
you make your eyes open wider to see more
you make your voice more frequent
you let yourself become known
you even change your appearance
and then
and then
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