Walking around the corridors during lunch.. Sitting alone in the mess.. Few girl bitches as my frnds thats what my life was for the entire 2 yrs.. I never wanted Shiva to get distracted from his work and our conversation got less each day due to it.. I wanted him to be famous and successful.. Which he has started climbing his ladders.. I feel proud when ppl in college talk about him.. About his articles.. Girls in my room drool over his pictures.. I feel jealous but they have pictures to drool over I have the man.. May he always stay away from all these girls buri nazar.. My Graduation will be complete.. My first thing in my to do list is to go and run and meet Shiva.. Hug him and spent entire day with him.. I feel entire day wont be enough.. Not at all.. I would want entire life to fill up the emptiness of these two years..

I walked to Snehas room and saw her sitting and crying.. I ran to her, wiping her tears I asked.

Sneha whats wrong??

She was terribly crying.. She clutched me tightly..

Raavi..

I rubbed her hair and caressed her face.. I got the glass of water from the side table and made her have it..

Raavi Rohan ditched me..

And she cried inconsolably.. She showed me the txt he sent her which said that he has moved on in life as he found a perfect girl for himself.. And he would want her to do the same..??? What a bastard.. I tried to calm her down.. At the moment she was so vulnerable that even if I try saying she wouldn't understand.. I made her lay down and patted her head until she dozed off to sleep..

I walked to the terrace.. And stood there looking at the moon.. Shiva asked me to look at the moon whenever I missed him.. That is the only most close connection to us.. He would so the same.. It reminded me of everyday I spent with him.. Also it made me feel close to him..

My chain of thoughts broke when my mind flashed Snehas scenario in my eyes.. The way she cried.. A sudden rush of fear passed through me.. My heart said Shiva will never do this to me.. But my mind said what if he fell for somebody outside.?? I quickly grabbed mh phone and dialled his number only to listen it to be switched off from the other side.. My Shiva will never ditch me.. He promised me he would come to take me.. I kept struggling with my mind and heart for the entire night.. How will this week pass?? How Will I go back to Shiva?? As the time was close my each passing day turned into a year.. I could do nothing just wait..

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Graduation day

Me and Sneha sat on the chairs while everybody was assembled in the hall.. All of us wore the gown and the cap.. My heart beat increased by each passing second.. My eyes looked around in search of Shiva.. But my fear ran through my mind.. I felt my heart beat increasing.. Next was me to be certified.. I stood over the stage in front of the audience but my eyes only searched for one person who might be standing amidst the crowd somewhere applauding for me.. My heart had full hopes but my brain fought reminding me again and again of the Snehas incident.. I walked down the dice and stood in the corner my eyes still roaming around and by each passing minute my heart beat increasing with the fear what if he doesnt come??? I wouldn't be able to live with him..