"you have to be open minded"

they say.

"It's a matter of choice"

they say.

"you don't have to be like this"

they yell.

wow.

a small room

with a giant screen

flashing lights

loud speakers

blaring, hurting.

it hurts.

it physically hurts.

my head

my

head

it hurts

everything hurts

please

please let me not.

It isn't a choice

to be like this.

to be wrong

and messed up.

why you think i chose to be like this is beyond my imagination.