People keep breaking me not knowing that it hurts my heart more than anything else, that I cut my arms each time it happens with someone. Cause my heart has a crack in it.........

Now it's shattered all over the floor cause someone I saw as I sister since I first been on Wattpad on my account broke it and Stitches walking out of the family before coming back a few days later, I tried to commit suicied on that day not caring how people would feel. I tried to freeze myself to death. I failed at it and I'm a failure as I always was. I can't draw, I can't sing, I can't be a good girlfriend, I can't fight, I'm not beautiful, I'm an insane freak, I'm a monster.............

I'm not gonna pick up the pieces anymore and gonna let them turn to dust as people I see as the light in my world break my heart more........

My heart is slowly being repaired......
Thanks to Reala even just being around me......
I feel whole again, like that missing piece of me is back............

But I still wanna hurt myself........
Cut myself more and burn the cuts to rid the pain of my broken heart......

I just wanna end it all........

But Reala is stopping me somehow..............
Like he knows it's not what I want.................

I just want all this heartbreak, sadness, and backstabbing to stop in my life............

To leave my depression before it kills me..........
So I can be happy once again..........
And have a 247 smile on my face, to laugh like I used to, to not cry every time I go to sleep remembering all my bullies and how they loved to beat me up and mock me for being poor............

To be happy once again...........

Reason why I wear hoodies, to hide my hideous face, to hide my scars. Reason why I wear makeup, to make myself look beautiful. Reason why I watch Full House, to laugh like I used to again. Reason why I tune out the world blasting my ears out with music, to cloud the dark thoughts in my head of ways to hurt myself and hide my drawings of harm and suicide. Reason why I rather be anti-social, cause I don't wanna be hurt anymore. Reason why I had my imaginary friends and boyfriends, cause I was so lonely, to fill the void of loneliness in my heart............

I don't wanna be hurt at my heart anymore..............

Please don't leave me everyone......

You all mean my world to me...........

Your all I have left...........

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