Please play the song while your reading this........ You guys can skip this chapter if y'all want. Doesn't matter like me.....

So you all know of my failed attempt to kill myself the day before Halloween.... Right?

Well........ I now feel more stupid than I already am because Reala was gonna come back from the mission the beginning of November.........

He was gonna come back seeing his girlfriend/best friend dead............. From herself......... And he couldn't stop her from it...........

I don't even know if Jackle told him I tried to kill myself............

I feel like the Multiverse's biggest idiot even though I'm Slender Man's eldest child.......

At first when I wanted to kill myself that day I wanted to mostly ether overdose or stab myself.............. Just to make it quick since we don't have a gun in the house anymore......

But I had a thought to freeze myself so I'll be weak and I'll exhaust myself to dead of not getting rest........ Just so everyone in the nehborhood would see the freak girl die right when she's trick or treating.........

I couldn't even make myself weak and I added ice to the tub.........

I started sobbing and I kept calling myself a Failure to Life and Everyone........... Cause I can't even kill myself or make myself weak......................

I can't even have someone love me for me and not my looks or use me or see me cry breaking my heart.............

It's like I'm the Failure of EVERYTHING in the Multiverse.

Cause I am...........

I'm just gonna go cry myself to sleep now...........

Later.............

~Siren DarkOcean