For over fifteen years I had those nightmares.

 Ever since I walked away from my family

My home

My tradition

My optimism

My culture

 I thought I did right

 But all I did was

wrong

 I remember sitting on the side of my couch. I was watching some worthless,good for nothing,brain wasting comedy on my old tv.

 It was a lonely night, I was sitting in my depressing old apartament.

 I was there

 I ate some crispy salty chips,drinked some cola,ate some pizza

 Man,was i wasting my time

I did nothing but I sitted there like a lazy blob

 I thought I was right

 Hurting and laughing at other people's faces

Not listening to good advices

Being overall a fool

a pathetic fool

 I did nothing

but went to bed