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Kannamma's POV!

So after everyone agreed to stay here. We all had a very good time. Amma, kayal aththa and savitri aththa prepared everything denying our helps. So we girls went to our room to talk.

I didn't get a chance to tell what really happened to Jo till now. Because after she came, we all became busy in preparing lunch and reception talks and all.

So tell me before my head explodes kanns! What happened? How you married Kavin? Jo asked me impatiently as soon as we settled in bed.

I told her everything which happened. She widened her eyes in shock and happiness.

Voah!! You both are truly meant for each other aren't you? Anyways! I'm so happy for you kanns! Thank god! Elders decided to held your reception! I'm not going to miss this! Yayyy!!! She yelled in happiness.

Jo.. You really don't have to do this.. You know right! I said slowly.

What? Attending your reception? She asked in confusion.

No.. You know the rent for hall! I said biting my lower lip.

God kanns! You still didn't drop that? Why are you like this? I thought you as my sister but I think you didn't think like that..😔 She said sadly.

No.. Not like that Jo! I swear I see you as my sister only. It's just that.. You know money always make a distance between relationships.. That's why.. I.. I.. I said honestly but cut off by Jo.

No kanns. You don't have to think too much okay? You know I'm a single child, my sister died on her born day itself because of jaundice. Being a single child, I can enjoy the pampering, love and food lonely without sharing with anyone. But you know the word 'lonely', yes! As much as enjoying, I have to suffer lonely. I can't share my little happiness or sadness with anyone unless amma and appa. I missed my sister kanns. When I saw you the first day, I truly thought you as my sister and now also. Usually, I didn't mingle with everyone and express my feelings. But with you, I'm even got angry on you when you said about your stupid decision. She said emotionally.

Jo please don't be sad.. I'm really sorry! I didn't mean it that way! I said apologetically. She nodded while choking back her tears.

Forget about me kanns.. I'm such a emotional idiot! So tell me do you said about anything to Kavin? Did you apologize? She asked me. I shook my head negatively.

What? Why??? She exclaimed.

I.. I didn't get a chance to tell! I stammered.

Really! You had the whole night yesterday yet you're saying you didn't get a chance! She said in disbelief.

God Jo! Do you think the whole yesterday night is for apologizing and talking? Don't say that you're married and have a child! Pooja said in disbelief.

Automatically, my cheeks heated up at the comment about what she really meant.

See! Anni is blushing! So she definitely didn't get a chance to talk! Ilakya anni teased me.

God! Right now, I just want the earth to open and swallow me.

No.. No.  Nothing like you think! Please don't tease me. I literally pleaded in embarrassment.

So Nothing happened? Jo asked teasingly. I looked at Maya. She's here and she's a little girl. Yet we're all talking this awkward topic in front of her. What she'll think!

Don't look at me like that! I'm not a little girl but 22 years old! And don't forget that I'm a paramedical student! Maya said like reading my mind. I rolled my eyes.

So what? You're still little girl! Go and play with sanju and diya okay? I said annoyed.

Haan.. As I'm eager to be here! I'm going😒! She said rolling her eyes.

Both of you stop it already! Kanns.. Just let her be. She's not a kid. She's a woman and she already crossed the age to get married! So don't make a issue and tell why didn't you tell him? Jo said.

Well, she's right in a way!

That.. He's mad at me. He didn't let me talk and slept on floor after taking blankets and pillows. I said with a sigh.

God! For this, you took that 'you're a little girl' lecture for me! You're Unbelievable kannamma! Maya said in disbelief. I smiled sheepishly😁.

So when are you going to tell him? Ilakya anni asked.

I don't know! I said honestly with a sigh.

Kanns! It's not good to postpone the things.. And this is one important thing.. So try to tell him as soon as possible okay? Pooja said. I nodded.

I don't know how and where to start. Everybody has dreams about babies and family and so he. What will he do if he get to know about this? I asked worriedly.

Kanns! For God's sake! It's not impossible for you to get pregnant! And to the top of it, you didn't consult any doctor after that day about your treatment ryt? You may have possibilities.

You know, I also can't get pregnant after diya as my uterus is weak. Diya is also a single child. I don't want my daughter to suffer like me. So I and Surya decided to adopt a child! We're going to adopt soon.. Not one but 4 children! Because we want group of kids to be roaming around and laughing in our new home.

Family is not only about getting pregnant and giving birth to a child.. It's something about trust, love, support, and happiness dear. It's not something that creates on its own, it's something we should create! Create your own family kannamma!

Jo said everything with seriousness. She's absolutely right! But my only fear is what Kavin will react if he come to know this!

You're right! Thanks Jo! You're indeed my akka! Love you.. Saying this, I hugged and kissed her cheeks. She smiled.

So let's come to the next new bride! Did you clear everything with Ram? Jo asked. Pooja smirked.

How can I leave him after he made me cry so much! I didn't slap or kick him only because he's now my husband! I'm just talking with him like a stranger! Poor him! Literally begging me to at least talk with him.. He's going to suffer for 2 months like this! Then only I'll start my life with him! Pooja said with a evil smirk😈

God! Ammu.. Do whatever you want.. Please don't smirk like that.. It's really scary! Ilaks anni said in which we all chuckled.

Oh! You're all here only.. Pooja! Can you please feed this milk to sanju? And here Jo.. milk for diya! Savitri aththa came with two milk bottles.

Sure aththa.. Pooja said and took sanju in her arms and started cooing and feeding her the milk.

Sanju started babbling and giggling.

Am.. Mamma.. Amma.. Sanju babbled while giggling and drinking the milk.

Aww! It's the second time she's saying this. After that day, she didn't say this word again. Now seeing you, she's saying.. Seems like she's so brilliant than us. Savitri aththa said while cooing sanju.

My amma called her so she left.

See kanns! She's not my biological daughter yet I'm her mom! This is what we are trying to say! Pooja said while seeing sanju lovingly. I smiled with a nod.

I totally understand! I'm sorry for being a fool for all the time! I said yet a small part of me is sad and fear about Kavin reaction.

It's okay! Forget about that! Concentrate on future okay? Anni said. I nodded.

Thank god! We finally managed to put some senses in this thick head! Maya said. I glared her with a pout.

Soon amma called us for dinner.

We all went to terrace for dinner. We all started eating. Suddenly, I want my appa to feed me like he do. Well, he didn't feed us regularly but often when he came home early from coffee shop. I smiled thinking about our happy days.

Soon anna and maya started their bickering. In the end, mama and appa started feeding us. It's truly a unforgettable night!

While eating, I felt thirsty but the bottles are emptied by this little devil. So I went downstairs.

I drank water. When I was about to turn, there that is! Rat! Omg! I'm so afraid of rats! Not just afraid but more like disgusted!

I was literally prepared to ran but collied on a hard chest. The masculine vanilla smell instantly calmed my nerves. I hugged him tightly clutching his shirt knowing very well who's that.

He calmed and patted me in a soothing way. I forgot about rat and everything around me. I didn't care about rats now. But he said that's gone. I have no choice than getting separated from him. I parted and missed his warmth.

Then again he said that there are rats. I don't mind whether it's true or not! I just want to hug him so I did. But Pooja interrupted and teased us and left. I felt so shy now.

Again he said rat! Maybe he's lying to hug me again? But when he pointed towards the real rat! I get so frightened and hugged him tightly.

Then after sometime what felt like eternity. I asked him whether the rat is gone or not. He said yes. And I parted from the hug and my cheeks heated up in utter shy. I literally ran from there. But I never miss the shy smile he gave which highlighted his dimple😍!

Then after that, we both went to terrace again.

Did you go to take water or take shower! What took you so much? Maya asked annoyed.

Maya! You know rats.. Maybe one of the rats didn't let her come😉! Pooja said with a wink. Thank god it was not audible to elders as they were so engrossed in their talks otherwise I'd have died of embarrassment!

Oh! Rat uh? I think there are many Ammu! Even Kavin took so long to return.. Ryt? Kathir asked teasingly.

We both lowered our head with a blushy smile. God! Please escape us from them!🙈

Then after that, we all talked for some time randomly obviously pulling legs, teasing and all. Pooja and Ram said that they're going to stay in India only not in London.

Ram will go to London in a week and will be returned in month after finishing the formalities to get transferred here in India. Thankfully, his company branch is also in Chennai. So he's trying to transfer here.

Savitri aththa and suresh mama are going to our native in a week as they have their own works which is agriculture.

Till Ram return to India, that is for one month, Pooja is going to stay in our house as it will be difficult for her to manage with sanju alone.

Karthi mama insisted her to stay in their home yet appa said that she's their daughter so they have full rights to make her stay here in her husband's absence.

Pooja became super happy hearing this from appa. She even cried in amma's lap. I felt so happy seeing her like this. Karthi mama finally agreed after seeing this.

Then we all slept in terrace like girls are all one side and boys are all one side.

We all got up and soon everyone left after breakfast. I decided to go to work after my reception. Kayal aththa said that we should return to Kavin's home after shopping for reception so that I have to pack my stuffs today as we're going for shopping day after tomorrow.

The day went not bad. Kathir stayed with us as the idea which I gave succeeded! His manager gave him one more extra day leave.

Now the time is quarter to 9. I had my dinner. Kavin is talking with others in hall. I decided to pack my bags now. I have to leave here day after tomorrow after shopping. I sighed.

This is the place where I grown up. This room and house contain so much of my memories. I and Maya often have pillow fights in this bed.

Maya fought with me for a little extra space which I occupied in this closet. Anna, maya and me did a mini wrestling just because anna ate our share of chocolate.

Appa and amma pampered me with their love. Amma beated me because I cried why because she beated me. Appa took my side always against amma and cooed me.

A lone tear slipped from my eye thinking that I have to leave here and live in a new house, new family.

I have to live in a house which once I went there as a guest and I'll become a guest for the house which is once mine. Seriously this is the worst part of a girl's life.. Well technically, indian girl's life!

Sometimes, I even wonder why always girls have to obey and respect every freaking rule and order. They says that boys are strongest among the genders. Then why can't they leave their house and live in their in-laws house?

Why everything is pushed on girls? Why can't we enjoy our life like boys. Why so much of restrictions for us? Like don't go there, don't sit like that, don't be rude, don't talk much, don't do this.. Don't do that! Why?

Well, the answer is these are all made by men not women! From the beginning, they're the one ruling, writing and educated. They didn't allow girls education. So obviously it's all because of them ryt? They made rules and regulations favoring for themselves.

A hand on my shoulder make me came out of my thoughts. I was surprised to see Kavin. When did he came?

He wiped my tears and that's when I realized I was crying badly.

What happened? Why are you crying? He asked.

Why is it always girls to sacrifice? Why? Are we born to sacrifice? We have to sacrifice and leave our family for the love and sacrifice our job and passion for family? Why? I said while sobbing on his shoulder.

Shhh... Who said like that? We both girls and boys are born to sacrifice for each other. Leaving family for love is exact equal to the responsibility of creating a new family, you know?

It's not about girls are powerless so that they should obey the rules and regulations. Think this way, Boys are made physically strong. Do you know why? He asked.

To control girls! I said. He chuckled.

No.. To protect girls. He said.

But.. Most of them are attacking and harassing why? I asked innocently.

Because they're are not humans. So answer me this! you, maya and mughil. All the three of you are grown up by aththa and mama only! They treat you three similarly no partiality ryt? He paused I nodded.

But you three are not same! Maya is more talkative. Mughil is more responsible and you're more innocent. Ryt? He paused. I'm not so innocent! I said with a pout. he chuckled.

So you're all different ryt? He asked. I nodded.

So simple. That's why some men are arrogant, aggressive and some are kind and loving. Even in girls also, some are dangerous than man. So it's equal ryt? He said. I nodded.

Good! So what I'm saying is girls are weak physically but strong by heart. But boys are strong physically and weak by heart. They both are born to protect each other.

Boys are born to protect a girl physically getting hurt by anyone and Girls are born to protect a boy from mental broke down.

They say that girls can't be live single forever and I'm sure this myth is made by a boy! Because, the truth is a boy can't live his life as single but a girl can! Did you see any widow men living his life by own? I mean, you might but there are very less. But you had seen many widow women living their life by own. Am I right?

He paused and I nodded.

So don't think you're leaving your family here! Just think you're going to create your own family! I swear women only have this power. Remember if a man is spoilt, he's the one to be spoilt. But If a woman is spoilt, then the whole family will be spoilt. Are you clear now? He asked.

I understood yet I can't.. I can't able to stop crying. It's my home but not any more.. I sobbed on his chest while hugging him. He consoled me by patting my back and cooing me like I'm a baby.

After about 15 mins which felt like eternity, I controlled my sobs and looked at him. He wiped my tears and kissed my forehead for few minutes.

Then parted from me, he said Now don't stress and go sleep.. Good night d my pondati(wifey)!

The sadness and the reason why cried were all became vanished and blush appeared in my face at his word. He chuckled and lead me to bed and made me to lie down. He covered me with duvet and slept in floor like that day. I'm so lucky to have him in my life. I smiled and peeked to see him. He closed his eyes maybe slept.

Good night my dear purusha(hubby) I said and immediately came to my side before getting caught by him and soon sleep enveloped me.

The days went by so quickly. We went for shopping and purchased dresses for our reception. That was so much fun. Kavin and I started talking yet I didn't tell him anything.

Today I'm going to tell him everything no matter what! I'll accept whatever decision he make. Today is friday! Yes only 1 day left for my reception which was in Sunday.

Aththa went to nearby market and mama went to park for evening walk. He came from his working site at half past 3. He freshened up and came outside. I handed him the towel. He wiped his face and hands. I stared him the whole time doing a little rehersal of what I'm going to tell.

Tell me.. What's cooking in this beautiful head? He asked casually. I blushed at the word 'beautiful'.

Uhm.. I.. I I sighed.

Kannamma! Just tell him everything!

Can we go to garden and talk? I asked him as I need some fresh air to calm me. He nodded and we went to garden and sat on the chairs.

Kavin listen! I'm going to tell you something important. So don't interrupt me while I'm talking okay? I paused. He nodded and saw me curiously and more attentively.

First of all, I'm really sorry for hurting you that day! I didn't mean a little bit of anything which I said that day. I didn't think your love as attraction or anything. I just said that to hurt you purposely to make you go away from me.

You know what happened earlier that day? I went to hospital because of my irregular.. irregular periods. Doctor asked me to take scan and I took. But what she said is the reason why I refused your proposal!

Kavin cut me off in middle.

Kannamma.. Just come to the point! You're making me restless! Don't tell the matter like serial directors who narrates slowly making the people die out of curiousity! Just get to the point!

He said in seriousness.

Please don't interrupt Kavin! Please! He nodded. I continued. So the doctor said I'm.. I'm having PCOS problem.. This means, I have difficulty in getting pregnant. Maybe I can't.. I don't know about whatever she said about treatment and all. But the only thing my mind registered is that I can't get pregnant with PCOS and this can't be cured.

Out of all day, you proposed me that day! What can I do Kavin? Accepting your love and make you suffer with my doomed future? How can I? I know everybody has dreams of having kids and so do I.

I was so broken that I can't think straight so I said those hurtful words to you. I agreed to marry Ram because he said that he don't want to be intimate with me nor want kids. His only condition is to care sanju like her own mother. So only I agreed to marry him.

I know I can't justify my words which I said to you by saying all these. No matter what, I should not said those to you and I'm truly sorry for that.

I thought that I'll leave India with Ram and live my life for sanju. But fate played otherwise. It brings us together at last.

I know I should have told this to you on our wedding night itself but I didn't get a chance or more precisely I didn't have courage to tell you. But  we can't live like this. Later or sooner, I must tell you this.

So yes! I can't get pregnant. I can't make you father and i can't be mother. I know there may be still possibilities are there but there's no guarantee for that and I don't want to give you any false hopes.

So this is it! I'll accept whatever you decide about our relationship. If you don't want to continue our relationship.. Then.. I'll.. I.. I'll leave.

I said in a go. But Kavin's face is blank.. Expressionless! Unpredictable!

Ka.. Kavin.. I managed to say this word.

Kannamma.. Can you leave me alone? He said in all seriousness. That's it, my legs literally ran from there without even asking my permission.

He wants me to leave him?

I don't know how I managed to go to our room.. No his room.. I collapsed on ground crying my heart out.

I.. I didn't expect him to say these words immediately that too without any difficulty! Is it that much easy for him to leave me?

Great! Then I'll do what he ask me to.. Kavin! I'm going to leave you! Happy life!

I packed my stuffs in a bag and left the home after saying a small good bye to the house. He's still in garden. With a heavy heart, I left.

Good bye Kavin! My love!

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