I look out of my window

At the darkness outside,

But it's the darkness within

That makes me feel I should die.

And the rain 'gainst my window

Cascading down,

Is the tears that I feel

When I feel I could drown.

I sit watching the T.V.

But don't see what I see,

I just surf through the programmes

Not wanting to be.

And when I'm eating my dinner,

The food has no taste,

It just ends up in the bin

Going to waste.

Going to waste, I feel I should die.

Not wanting to be, just thinking 'Why?'

Some people take their chances.

Some of us 'Seize the Day'.

Others just take what life throws,

And watch as it just fades away,

As their life goes astray,

As their dreams fly away.

I know which of these I am,

Whether I like it or not.

If it happens, it happens to me,

So I guess I'll just take what I've got.

But I wish that this was not so.

I wish I could DO,

Not just go with the flow.

But I don't.

But I can't

So I look out of my window,

At the darkness outside,

And I sigh.