I try to understand what is happening, why I still like to think that I have a choice when I'm constantly dragged around and treated as if I held little to no meaning? Why I still held on to the hope of finding my Prince Charming instead of accepting that I will end up in a loveless and exhausting marriage?  Why I like to think that without me my family would never be able to stand on its own feet? It's a terrible thing to hope for but it's nice to know you held significance . Why do I keep convincing myself that there are people out there who would do anything to get me back if they were to lose me? I know that in your mind I come and go and that in reality I am constantly overlooked. I am nothing important so why do I insist on trying to feel so? Why do I hold on when there  is nothing holding me back and keeping me from fading into nothing, my true essence?