Have you ever had that 1 friend that if you do 1 thing without them they tell you how suicidal it made them? Like I went bowling with a couple friends this afternoon and now I get shit from her about how it's just going to make it easier for her to disappear and stuff because I "left her out" if this one little thing.

I didn't invite her because I didn't know who all was going to be there, and because I was invited by someone else, so I didn't feel comfortable with asking another friend to tag along.

Idk what to do, I always try to be there for her. But it's getting hard because she doesn't think.

Like my parents put me in harder classes than she's in, she gets homework and I get a text saying "I have stupid English homework 😭😭"

Then I responded with "Lucky. I have to write an essay in 2 days"

"Hahahahaha that's what you get for being in honors" was her response

Like I know she goes through a lot, but I can't stand this. I literally wanted to scream how much this annoyed me to someone, but then again. None of my friends understand what it's like to be the one that everyone depends on.

Anyways, back to the original point of this. I can't stand how she acts sometimes, but I can't tell her either because she already cuts and has been suicidal for a year. I'm afraid that I'll lose her, and no matter how annoying she can be it brings tears to my eyes at the thought..

Sorry for my quick little vent, I'll update more quotes soon..