Ragini's POV:

I ran into the balcony of my room and began palpitating...my eyes began pouring non stop hot tears...

'No Ragini...no... stop crying... why do you care...you don't feel anything for him anymore... that emotion is dead...it's dead...you can't cry for him...he broke your heart...he broke your trust...he made fun of your emotions...you can't feel for him...

Rohit ...
You love Rohit... remember???

Then why didn't it hurt you so much when you heard Siddhesh say that he cheated upon you...

Why???

It should have hurt you more na???

But look at you...you shameless woman..you are crying because HE said it again...

Again!!! That he doesn't love you!!!
He never loved you!!!
He never did!!!
He never loved you Ragini...

Why is this shredding my heart into freckles time and again...

Why does it still pain you??? This was something he told you years ago... remember???

'Huhhh!!! Stop it Ragini...'

I shouted at myself... wiping my tears which were carelessly flowing...my traitor heart was AGAIN crying because of that age old wound rather than the one I must be crying right now!!!

Why am I not crying for Rohit???
He broke my trust???
He cheated upon me...it should hurt me? But why am I not able to take my thoughts of that monster who tore my soul apart...my so called first love!!!

I fell on my knees and cried loudly like a vulnerable broken tarnished soul loudly...I felt two arms holding me from breaking down...

'Oh mo Dhia (oh my god in Irish) Ragini...child... please...shhhh' she tried to hug me and I hugged her tightly crying non stop in her arms...

'Why is my life so complicated Nat... Why don't I know what I want in life??? I married him because I hate him...but now when I know he doesn't love me it still hurts...It still hurtttts...
I was here because I wanted to meet Rohit...my fiance...my heart knew he ditched me...I didn't want to accept it...I was too stubborn...but today when I had a chance to go to meet him...he was in Kennington I didn't meet him...I don't know why my heart didnt allow me to...

This... this marriage is a sham...it's only a deal ..then why does it still hurt me when I hear he doesn't love me...

He broke my heart years ago Nat...
He left me shaken...
He left me like a joke...
He left scars in my soul...
I could never fall in love again but I gave Rohit a chance a year ago...
I moved on...
Atleast I thought I did...

I repeated to myself like a goddamn parrot that I love Rohit..but why isn't that reaching my soul???

Why am I not shedding tears for him Nat??? '

'Sweetheart please calm down.. here drink some water' she offered me and I swatted my hand such that the glass fell down and broke into pieces...

I looked at the shattered glass pieces and said..
'This is how I am right now Nat... broken...and I don't know which piece goes where...I want to hate this man because he has done so much...he manipulated me into marrying him, he has my ancestral house on his name now but I'm still stuck on that scar he gave me years ago...

Why Nat???' I cried hugging her...

'I don't know what happened between you both dear but all I can say is it hurts him to hurt you...I can see it in his eyes child' she said cupping my face ..

'No....it doesn't Nat' I screamed so loudly that she literally flinched at my voice ..

'He doesn't get hurt because he's a heartless monster Nat...
He killed me years ago...
This one infront of you is a dead soul...
I am living dead body here without emotions...
He killed me Nat...
He broke my heart ...
Broke my soul...' I yelled miserably

'No my dear...Im sure there was a misunderstanding between you both...you both must talk' she said and I laughed bitterly...

'Talk to him??? Misunderstanding...huhhh...I convinced myself an entire night that what I saw was a misunderstanding...I still didn't believe him and called him every single day expecting a different answer from him for bloody 6 months Nat...

But everytime I got only one answer...

'Dont call me...You are bothering me'' saying I covered my face with my palms recalling my dreadful past...

'Were you in a relationship?' Nat asked...

To which I smiled saying...
'I don't know Nat...but all I can say is I could destroy the world for him and he could protect me from every evil'

'Then what seperated you both?' Nat asked and I kept looking at the moon who was hiding behind the clouds...

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He got my best friend pregnant Nat...
He slept with her..
Infact ...

He is already a father to a girl...
His and so called bestie's illegitimate child! ' I said and Nat saw me in horror...

'Impossible...this this is a lie' Nat said and I smiled...

'You don't know his true face...he has many hidden masks...I know...He is the father of my so called best friend Malini Khandelwal's daughter!!!' and Nat covered her mouth with her palms.

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Dearest Readers,

Double update today 🙃🙃🙃

So... Siddhesh broke Ragini's heart AGAIN...

With Malini Khandelwal's entry in this story do you still think Siddhesh is innocent? Or did he really cheat upon Ragini???

And he has a daughter???

Is there something missing here??? Or is Ragini right???

Ragini doesn't love Rohit? But still says she loves him? She hates Siddhesh but is unable to hate him???

If Siddhesh doesn't love Ragini why is he still ok to be hurt by her???

So many questions unanswered!!!

With this Phase 1 of this book comes to end...

From Monday Phase 2 of this book will unveil...

One by one all the questions will be answered...

Hope you will join me in this journey ahead...

Thank you for your pouring love for Phase 1 of this book ❤️

Till then...

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