[SERIOUS TALK!] Why can't I enjoy something that I like?

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[Everything I say here is what I trully said, thought and did. No lies.

Don't confuse me with my OC Dianne. I am myself. The person behind the screen not taking the role of Dianne.]

So I was planning my first game ever. I was thinking what possible stories I could give my characters and since I love those deep and depressing stories I read so many of, I say "Why not read a few mental disorders while I'm at it. I would like to know if I'm REALLY Insane." I joked. And I started to search in google "5 Stages of Insanity" Then I saw a website that says "12 Stages of Insanity." I laughed and rolled my eyes. I thought 'I only asked 5, whatever.' And pressed (i am using my crap phone) on it, I was reading it and I was veerryyy uninterested all of the sudden, idk, I know I was kinda doing a research for my game, but I just feel so bored and uninterested reading the article that says about something that I really liked! It didn't really surprises me, this keep happening everytime I do something. Homework, drawing art, listening to music, cooking, developing my game, reading fanfictions, heck! even writing my books in which I love! and cringe. At first I was so into it until just like -snap!- I got bored. I don't like doing it anymore and just want to do something else instead. I always excuse it as my laziness getting the best of me but that also confuses me. Lazy people NEVER do work more than usual.

But mine is inconsistent. Lazy one minute ago, not by the next. It boggles my mind! I can't really put my finger on it... It's so weird.

This is why, I almost NEVER update my books, I keep trying to find a excuse to not do something I liked. And. I can't stop myself, Is it laziness? I don't think so. This has been worsening especially with school dragging my feet slowly in the background. F-ck. THAT gave me an excuse. I didn't like myself for trying to get rid writing a book hobby that I love. Can you stop yourself? No, but I can tell people...? I don't really like sharing secluded information about me. I have my reason, and it's stupid, whatever. Anyways...

Knowing a person like me. When I like something and crave. I WORK MY ASS FOR THAT LOVE. Whether it's a person or thing, nothing, NOTHING can make me stop even get in the way of mah things I love.

But with this 'thing' that has been going on in the background. I don't even think I can finish anything if I continue this.

Anyways, ya learned something about me and the truth. HOORAY!!

I'm being honest, Can you be honest too?

Immah ask a question, please answer very honestly.

Q. When you talk to me, do I switch moods too quickly? Or just sloooowly starts to get mad or like SNAP! I'M SO MAD!! Y'know? Ye.

I can't verify if I have Mood swing >:/

And No. I am not on my period.

New catchphrase! XD
-Crazy and Sure is Messy~ BYEEE!!

its bad holly molly o-o MISTAKEEEE!!!

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