I'm lying with my phone burning a hole into my eyes in dark.

A quick glance at the time.

1:08 AM

Whoaw! It's well past bedtime and I'm chatting over text with a man who is nothing but a balloon pumped up with ego.

I always like the bare truth girl.

'Bloody rascal' I mumble.

You want to hear the truth? Then here it is.

I type in fury.

Waiting...

I type and erase, not knowing exactly how to frame my sentences. What I was going to say could change everything. Oh why is it so complicated?...

I press send.

In this one year. I've felt something about you. Something more than friendship. You were always so different for me. And I can't name it, but I haven't felt it for any person, any boy, or man in my life...

Bare truth, that's it. No ornamentation.

[1:10 AM]

Typing...

[10.13 am]

Typing...

[10.15 am]

It's not the end of anything...
Feelings ...
I told you to keep your distance from me..
Right from the first time.

I won't usually work on things that won't work out...

Wait what? So he thought about this too?

I had to say good bye to somebody already..it still hurts...

He's still stuck on that girl who left him.

Aagghh!

I knew I should stop but adrenaline is coursing through my body.

We both agree then that it won't work? 🤔

Do I sound like I'm begging for him to stay?

Staying away from you was unfortunately never possible. I wanted your friendship. I wanted to keep whatever we had and so I never had this conversation before, until today...

No answer. Total silence on the other end.

And I didn't say these all to push you away.
I said all these because I believed if I came clear to you, we can work out a way to keep the friendship which you believe or not was falling apart. You're the older one. You're the one who'll understand.

More grovelling. Ugh! There's gone my self respect down the drains.

Yes .. that why I told you right from the beginning...
l like to be hidden in  my world..
Don't want a dent between us...
So let's keep up what we have in between..

Nothing is a dent if you don't let it fall on us.

The next person I am holding in my arms is going to be with me for a long time...

You've been through this age. Scold me, explain to me, hurt me if you feel that's the right thing... But at the end, I want us to be friends, in spite of how I felt or you felt.

I promise you there will be a day we will laugh together on this conversation...🙄

And just like that he goes offline. I collapse on my bed, eyes moist.

Whatever we have between us will either fall apart or it'll be strengthened from now on.

Tommorow will tell.

I dose off.

500 words completed. Written for the contest by WattpadAfterDark
Note that thus is a real life text as I my conversations are in  bold and his in italics.