there's little to say that hasn't been said before / they've all been yours, all of them, including me / they've had their chance, and so do i / i didn't let it go, but it wasn't the right time / maybe it never was / i don't know anymore, because now i'm sitting alone / school doesn't make me happy anymore, like it used to / it used to be a source of joy which caused me to be exuberant / but it's been spoiled, completely taken by my melancholy / i've fallen out of love with this place / and there's no redeeming quality is possesses when it's empty / not empty, not truly, but it feels like it / like there's something against me / like they want me to give up / like they're urging me to be happy when it's over / everyone else has friends they interact with on a daily basis / i get that once a day / and then i'm back to my antisocial life / and you've fallen out of love in learning about me / just as i have with school / i don't interest you much anymore when there's the world out there / new things / faces that aren't marred by sleepless nights and despondency / i can't change myself but i wish i could / then i'd be better, then i'd have your attention / but no, i cannot morph your desires / just as my desire to enter this building has been soured by endless days of boredom and nonspeaking / i'm sorry if i'm unable to speak around you / it's not that i can't, it's just that / the words i want to say aren't going to taken well / and i've grown used to biting my tongue because of this / because who wants to hear a lonely, lifeless boy complain over and over? / they have lives / you want to be apart of them / and i cannot blame you for this / it's not in my nature to be so cruel / i'm sorry that i'm a pest / i'm sorry that you don't think me to be as interesting as i once was