Why do I somewhat strangely enjoy Jake Suffering? I need help. Seriously.

(WARNING; THIS HEADCANNON WILL MENTION SOME CERTAIN SENSITIVE TOPICS. IF YOU ARE UNCOMFORTABLE WITH IT, FEEL FREE TO SKIP)

-Jake has BPD (Borderline personality disorder)

-Jake had an abusive friend named Gregory who treated him like sh*t, and was passive-agressive with him and would always emotionally abuse him whenever he had the chance. (He and Jake stopped being friends afterwards.)

-Jake has a strained relationship with his dad. (Both his parents are divorced, and he lives with his mom along with Shawn and Connie.)

-Jake began to develop self-loathing thoughts after S1 and during all stars.

-Jake once thought Tom didn't want to talk with him back in All-Stars because he got him fired from his job. (He began blaming himself for ruining Tom's life.)

-He did self-harm during and after his relationship with his ex. (That's why he was sent to Disventure Camp in the first place, To calm himself from his bad relationship with his ex.)

-He ended up doing self-harm again during All Stars because he thought Tom hated him and didn't want anything to do with him after what he did to him.

-He didn't tell anyone about what he did because he was afraid he would make them a burden. (And because he felt like he deserved it for what he did to Tom back then.)

-He hid his scars by wearing jackets and long sleeves. (And if anyone saw the scars, He would say he got it from an accident.)

-He was caught by Tom when he saw him with a bunch of cuts during their stay at the motel.

-Jake finally caved in and told Tom, Miriam, Ashley and his family about what he tried to do and is currently going to therapy for it.

-Jake sometimes would get nightmares of Tom and his loved ones hating him for what he did. (Luckily Tom cuddles with him for comfort)

(Daily reminder: If you are feeling suicidal or depressed, please tell your loved ones or an adult to help you and call suicidal hotline.)

(Remember, you aren't alone. Please do not make a decision that you might regret forever. Your actions might effect your loved ones in the process, do not do something you might regret.)

(Thank you.)