The academic year has started. I was nervous today. I wasn't sure if I would be able to face him after so long. This was the first time I arrived at campus without prior plans. Every year felt different but Liz proved this feeling to be true.

I joined Liz and Macy to the middle back of the class, ignoring all those I used to sit in front with. It was easy once I saw how excited Macy and Liz were to see me. They introduced me to a few other people who sat with them casually and I have having a good time.

Until he decided to darken our row of seats.

This time when I looked at Beckett, I didn't want to cry.

I was thankful for the small progress, yet he was a painful reminder of the lost dreams.

He tried to talk to me.

After a summer full of silence, he wanted to talk.

I declined.

Beckett is stubborn and I knew he wasn't going to leave me alone but Liz stepped in and told him fuck off, but in a nice way.

I saw Beckett today and I survived.