It's been a week since Yeonjun has left for the city. The whole time I was drowned in work, patient after patient and it was never ending, and today was no different. I managed to get a quick thirty minute nap before a nurse came into the staff room informing me I had a visitor in my office. I managed to pull myself together as fast as I could before rushing down the hallway thinking all type of worst case scenario of my patients

I opened the door expecting one of my patients to be waiting for me, ready to complain about pain, bleeding that they are experiencing, vision impairment. Instead my stomach twisted in pain as Yeonjun leaned against my desk as his arms crossed his shoulder.

"Yeonjun? What are you doing here?" I said entering the office and closing the door behind me. "Are you hurt?" I asked, scanning his face and body for any sight of blood.

"No I'm not" He said in a slight cold tone catching me off guard. He rarely speaks to me in a cold tone. I looked up at him tilting my head trying to figure out why he would be here

"I will give you one last chance Ah Rang," he said, making me even more curious, "Tell me the truth about why we broke up" The tightness in my stomach became even worse, but I couldn't help but remember Miss Jeon's words. He deserves to know, it was his child as well

Just tell him, end this pain and tell him.

But I didn't utter a word

What if he hates me after what I did to him? What if he never forgives me?

"You are really not planning on telling me" Yeonjun chuckled in disappointment looking down at the ground. That's when he pulled out a documents and handed it over to me

"What is this?" I asked, taking the document and looking over it.

"Your medical history from the city hospital" He said, I flipped through the pages until my last medical report that's when I felt my blood run cold and my muscles shut down not being able to move an inch of my body as my eyes laid on the pregnancy details

He knew I was pregnant

"Now I really wish to believe that you accepted the money from my mom to pay off your student debt, but that wasn't the case at all, was it?" Yeonjun said "You accepted the money to support you and the child. Is that true?"

"Yes" I answered quietly

"I dont understand, why did you accept the money? Did you not trust me to take care of you and the child?" he said

"No" I said immediately "I trusted you, I always did. Four months after the Christmas party, I went to the doctor because I was constantly vomiting. The doctor confirmed that I was twelve weeks pregnant. I was honestly scared but I knew you will not leave me and you will take care of me and the child. Remember you always wanted to start a family and we always talked about it. I was planning on telling you the next morning so when I showed up at your house your mother called me into her office, where the same doctor who gave me the result so I knew immediately that she knew I was pregnant"

"I expected her to be happy but instead she told me to leave you so you can focus on becoming the CEO and she can't risk having the child and I in your way. I was naive enough to believe her but I left on the intention that it was indeed the best for you. She did give me money to help support the child and pay off my student debt." I said "I didn't know that my student debt was paid off, so I took the money."

"Did you ever try to contact me or think of telling me in those four years?" he asked, his face was expressionless the whole time, there was no reaction. It was very foreign for me to see Yeonjun like that.

It was like he was a completely different person.

"I tried," I said, remembering the times I would call him on the payphone hoping that one day he would pick up, but never once he did. "I don't know if you remember but I would call from a pay phone to try and get a hold of you. But never once you picked up"

"If it was a pay phone number the popped up in my screen I would probably never pick it up, but if it was your name I would have" he said

"Your mother blocked my number off your phone. So I had no choice but to call you from a pay phone. If you picked up the call you would have known it was me, you would recognise my voice immediately and I would have told you everything" I said

"You hid the fact that you were pregnant. The fact I was about to be a father. One of the things that I cherished the most is growing a family more than becoming a CEO" he said as fumes started to be hinted in his voice "Then where is my child?"

My child

I felt my heart beat hard and my throat tightened. As much as I didn't want to relive the memories but I kept telling myself he deserves to know the truth, he needs to know the truth.

"Where is my child Ah Rang?" he asked pressing me for an answer, I hesitated before speaking up

"There is no child" I said, I looked at him to confusion flash his face

"Stop fucking around and tell me where the child is" he said bitterly, sending stabs right into my chest

"I'm not messing around, there is no child" I said as I felt my throat tighten

"What did you do to my child? You didn't put them up for adoption did you?" he asked, twisting the stabs in my chest even further. Did he think that low of me? That I would put our child, my own child up for adoption

Just the thought of that made my throat tighten even more, I wanted to speak to tell him that wasn't the case but nothing left my mouth. I was utterly disappointed about what he said.

"I had a miscarriage" I managed to say, for the first time since the beginning of this conversation Yeonjun's eyes soften"Your mother also got me a job position in the town hospital. After that I kept on ignoring your calls and messages, but you never stopped trying to get a hold of me. So we met at the park where we had our first date and I ended things."

"I was supposed to leave the next morning to go to Town, but I insisted on leaving that night. It was raining very hard even though my mom warned me against it but I didn't listen to her. The bus ended up slipping and flipping over in the middle of the mountains. I don't remember much except for the pain that I felt in my stomach and then waking up in the hospital. Thankfully they managed to save the baby and keep the embryo in my womb even Doctor Park was shocked especially when I had glass shattered all over my stomach and body, which were the scars that you saw that day"

"But I wasn't doing well mentally, I kept having panic episodes which made me have a miscarriage... i... i-" I tried to continue but I felt like someone was squeezing their hands around my throat as tears welled up in my eyes making my vision blurry up completely

"I'm sorry" I managed to say through the tightness of my throat as tears dropped down my eyes onto my cheeks continuously, trying to stand up straight but couldn't eventually I sat on the coach. I expected for me to burst out crying till I faint but it didn't happen, instead I felt something I longed for, a weight lifted off my shoulder.

Relief

Finally I said it out loud, to the person who needed to hear it the most

"So not only you hid the fact you were pregnant but you also hid the fact my child died." Yeonjun said after an eternity of silence "I...I was suppose to be a father, you knew it was my goal to grow my family and you hid it for so long. It hurts me to know that my child is gone, but it hurts me more to know that you werent honest with me. I trusted you with my whole life last thing I expected is for you to hid the fact you were pregnant and you had a miscarriage with my child. Our child."

"I was naive to believe your mother" I said

"Don't throw the blame on my mom" he said, making me freeze in my place, I looked up at him and there was sheer hatred in his eyes. "I'm not saying my mom is innocent, but I don't know if I can forgive you for keeping such things a secret. I didn't get the chance to celebrate the fact I was going to be a father, I couldn't help but feel over the moon when I saw the medical documents and the fact you were pregnant, on my way here I was just imagining what the child would look like. My heart ached to know I wasnt there for the first four years of their life but I was determined to make it up for them. But now to know they didn't even... they weren't even here in the first place" he said and his voice started to weaken

"I love you so much and I will forgive you over anything, but honestly over this I don't know if I can"

Those were his last words before he left my office leaving me alone in the darkness.