I entered the house which was dead quiet indicating that everyone was still asleep. I removed my heels to make no noise and went into my bedroom and got ready for bed and straight to sleep.

However after a few hours I was awakened by loud arguing outside of my bedroom door. I wasn't surprised when I opened the door and saw Kian's small figure right in front of my door with his back facing me and he was wearing a matching pjs with Kai who was in front of Kian clearly not happy that Kian is refusing to follow his orders

"Kian, enough, back to bed right now" Kai said

"No, I want Ma~" Kian said my heart instantly melted at Kian calling me Ma.

"Is everything okay?" I asked

"Ma~" Kian cheered as he heard my voice. He threw his arms up asking me to pick him up which I did

"Good morning" I said placing a kiss on Kian's cheek as he wrapped his arms around my neck clearly enjoying the attention

"Sorry for waking you up" I heard Kai say. I looked up at him and could help but find it adorable with his morning hair

"Its okay" I said

"Play" Kian said pointing towards the living room

"No sweetheart I will go to sleep" I said turning back and walking into my dark cold room

"No" Kian squealed

"I only got two hours of sleep Kian" I said sitting on my bed, still feeling tired and I placed Kian down on my bed

"Come on Kian lets go, let Junghae sleep" Kai said leaning against the door frame. Kian went from sitting straight up on my bed to laying down on one of my pillows refusing to leave

"Its okay, just let him here" I said

"Are you sure?" Kai asked. I nodded as a yawn escaped my mouth. I made myself comfortable underneath my bed sheets and Kian sneaked in as well

"Okay if he does anything annoying, let me know." Kai said. I nodded as I layed down resting my head on the pillow and Kian laid his head on my chest.

"Sleep tight," Kai said. The room slowly started to be completely dark as Kai closed the door of the bed room and just as sleep took over me

"Dada" Kian screams out, calling for Kai, making sleep completely banish from my head.

This kid

After few seconds the room was greeted with a speck of light and I saw Kai peeking his head through the door

"Kian" Kai hissed in warning "no screaming"

"Dada" Kian said quieter but still loud to my ears "sleep" he said pointing to the empty space next to him. It took me a moment to realise what Kian was asking.

He wanted all three of us to sleep in the same bed.

Kai and I in the same bed

"Kian enough" Kai said, he stepped into the room and approached the bed. He reached over to grab Kian but Kian pushed Kai's hands away

"No" Kian squealed loudly

"Enough, you are going back to your room" Kai nagged Kian. both went back and forth and me on the other hand who didn't get enough sleep, I was slowly starting to get pissed off

"Enough" I said loudly causing both to draw quiet. "Kai close the door and come sleep on the bed"

Just anything to make it quiet so I can sleep.

"Are you sure? I-I mean, I don't want to make you uncomfortable, its your personal space" Kai said

"Personal space? We already kissed. I don't think that exists anymore." I blurt out from the tiredness but soon I felt my face heat up at the realisation. I looked over at Kai even though I couldn't see his face clearly but I knew he was shocked at what I said as he froze for a moment before proceeding to close the door making the room turn completely dark before I heard his footsteps and then his heavyweight dip on the other side of the bed.

At first sleep didn't come to me, as I was too busy trying to process what just happened and what I just said. But sooner or later it finally did

"Ma~", a familiar tiny voice called out

"Seowon?" I called out into the darkness,

"Ma~," the voice said again, but this time it came from behind me. I turn around, and that's when. I saw him.

Seowon

His tiny body was on the floor as he was crawling towards me. He looks exactly like how I remembered him. The dark chocolate brown eyes with a hit of gold in the middle of the middle. His dark brown hair and his chubby baby cheeks.

"Seowon", I sobbed as I felt my knees weaken. I stepped forward, and just when I was about to hold him and pull him into my chest, that's when an arm grabbed me from behind, and I turned to see thirteen familiar faces look at me. They still looked the same, their eyes were closed but they were looking towards me as if they could see me. Their faces were pale and it was rested as if they were sleeping

As if they were dead

"Why did you do it?" All thirteen faces said at once

A scream woke me up, and I saw Kai looking down at me as he hovered over me with his hand next to my head to support himself and one was cupping my cheek. His face was filled with worry and anxious as his eyebrows  was pulled tightly together. I looked over his shoulder to see Kian looking over his shoulder with worry on his face

"Are you okay?" Kai asked. It took me a moment to respond but I nodded and sat up on the bed. That still didn't stop Kai and Kian from being worried. "Are you sure?"

"Yeah, sorry for waking you up" I said, I looked up at Kai who was still sitting very close to me

"No, it's okay" He answered as he gently grabbed my cheek and leaned it to kiss my forehead placing it for a moment. His gesture gave me assurance that everything was okay. That I am safe. He slowly pulled away, still being close to me. I looked up at him to see him staring at my lips.

I couldn't help but think about our kiss. His soft gentle kiss, his light touch. I want it. I want to feel it again. I reached and grabbed the collar of his pj top and pulled him down towards me until our lips gently laid on top of each other. Melting and moulding into each other.

He softly moved his lips against mine confronting me. Which worked as I felt my nerves relax under his touch. He moved his lips firmly but gently assured me that Im safe between his arms.

I want to be your husband

I remembered his words. I stopped and pulled away gently, still holding him close to me.

"Did you actually mean it?" I asked quietly as I felt his breath hit my lips on how close he was to me

"What?" He asked tracing the outline of my bottom lip with his soft ones

"When you said you want to be my husband" I said, I couldn't help but feel my heart squeeze. The fact I had a child without even getting married, I don't know why but it hurts. It hurts at the fact a man is willing to have a child but not willing to get married to the woman bearing his child.

I don't want to do that again.

"Yes. Is that too much to ask for?" Kai whispered. I felt my breath stop. I looked into his eyes and I knew it

He was sincere.

"Why?" I couldn't help but question his interest. He looked at me with his soft gaze, not saying a word. It was like he was hesitating for a moment. His eyes were going back and forth with mine, it's like he was in a conflict with his own self. But soon his eyes drew wide and sooner I knew why

"Dada" Kian yelled, making his presence known. I peeked behind Kai to see Kian tucking on Kai's pj top as hard as he could. Clearly not happy at the fact that we forgot about him as his face was red from the anger and a deep frown was imbedded on his face

When it was clear to Kian that he had both Kai and I's attention, he dropped to his knees on the bed and started crying out loud, shaking the whole house with his cries.

Putting on a show early in the morning

Kai and I managed to calm down Kian and took him to Kian's favourite bakery, which was a small local bakery run by a couple and their dog. Next to the bakery was a small park that was a few steps away from the river.

Before we even stepped into the bakery the delicious smell of fresh bread filled my lungs making my mouth instantly water. The bakery had a smooth grey flooring with dark wooden walls. It was like a cabin. In the middle was a table that had a whole loaf of bread and on the right side it had a table against the wall that had already cut bread, croissants and other pastries. While on the left side there were two beaches with a coffee table placed in front of it creating a small seating area. Right across the door was the kitchen and the cashier.

"Granny" Kian called out as soon as we stepped foot into the bakery, making his presence loud and clear to the whole bakery.

Granny? Kian's grandmother? Kai's mother?