I've just gotta say that the first time was really bad. Like I get where Harper was coming from. It hurt a little and I just have to admit that I was just so awkward. Even though Jordan and I have chemistry it was like I couldn't get out of my head.

I was lowkey panicking but Jordan didn't seem too burnt up about it. I wasn't sure if that was a good or bad thing because maybe it just meant I sucked at sex.

His hand rested on my ass and the other on the ridge between my spine.

I shifted my head a bit and Jordan started to laugh softly.

"What?" I asked.

"Just wondering what you're going to say next."

I wrinkled my nose.

"I think I'm bad at sex," I said.

He laughed harder.

"Stop laughing," I told him.

"You're not bad at sex. Trust me," he said while feeling me up.

I slapped his hand away but he just moved it back.

"You're just nervous. Once you get out of your head you'll relax."

I blew out a breath and got off of him.

Determination filled my face.

"Let's try this again," I said, starting to stand up.

He looked at my face before pulling me back down so he could die of laughter.

I was going to snap at him but him suddenly rolling over startled me. He lifted his arms so he was hovering on top of me and I felt my face getting hot.

He bent his head down to kiss me and slowly made his way down my neck. And just when I was starting to relax back into it he flipped us over so I was straddling him.

His face showed me he was done messing around. And his hands gripping my thighs let me know that this was happening again. But this time he was letting me set the pace.

***

We were going on a triple date with Margot and Matt and then Harper and Liam. Elyse was off hanging out with her boyfriend and some of his friends.

We made plans to scooter around the city after we ate dinner at Millenium Park.

When it was dark we paid for our scooters and headed to the riverwalk.

The lights of the city mixed with the wind cutting through the humidity made me smile.

Harper and Margot were laughing at something behind me but I was just looking out at the water smiling like a dork.

Earlier I made everyone take a picture with me with my disposable camera but I wanted another one to fully cement this moment.

Everyone was mad at me when I asked again but everyone stopped to do it.

I was super excited to see the developed pictures but then I realized I was turning into my mom.

***

I worked a shit ton more, to save for college and I even found a roommate. I reached out on Facebook and I was supposed to be meeting her in a few days since we were both native Chicagoans.

Mrs. Mcalister and I hung out a few times before she was off to go hang out with her kids for the summer.

In two weeks my family and I were taking a trip to London. I was really excited because I had never been but it sucked that it was cutting into Jordan and I's last summer.

Jordan was also leaving for school earlier than me because athletes moved into dorms before the other students.

I was hoping to visit him at least once before I had to leave for Northwestern. Mostly because I was going to miss him but also because I wanted to leave my mark on his space.

After me and Jordan finally hit our sexual sweet spot sex was so much better. Once I got rid of the pressure in my head our chemistry filled the space and I was able to enjoy it.

However, sneaking around late at night did not go unnoticed. I think had her suspicions about me having sex but suprizingly she said nothing. She knew I was on birth control for my periods but I figured a talk was coming sooner rather than later.

Margot finally found out Harper and I weren't virgins anymore and so we had a joint no longer virgin party. She even made us a cake.

I took the Saturday off because we were all planning a day trip to Six Flags in Gurnee.

I rode with the girls and Jordan drove the car of guys.

I was an adrenaline freak and I loved roller coasters so I was hella excited.

Jordan was kind of scared of heights even though he wouldn't admit it so I was forced to go on a lot of rides without him.

Elyse was my brand of girl. We went on every single ride there because she loved rides too. Halfway through the day we switched to water rides before we went home.