⤳Couple: Deft/Kim Hyukkyu x Reader
⤳Thể loại: văn xuôi, enemies to lovers
⤳Sad ending
⤳Warning: nhắc đến trầm cảm, tutu. cân nhắc trước khi đọc
⤳Ngôn ngữ: tiếng anh (zì tui muốn luyện tiếng anh chút hì hì)

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yn looked at her test result.

math: 96
literature: 92
science: 90

ranking: 2

"typical yn, always high score"

yn's seamate looked over at her result, commenting.

"and let me guess, hyukkyu definitely has the highest ranking"

yn and hyukkyu had always been rivals in study. they were both intelligent but it seemed like hyukkyu was a bit better. that's why he's always on top 1, never changed since grade 10.

"look like you need better luck, kitten"

hyukkyu chuckled as he pat yn's head. yn sighed and pushed hyukkyu away.

"what is wrong with her?"

yn got picked up by her family butler. he looked at yn through the rear mirror, his eyes looked concerning.

"um, miss lee"

"i'm afraid your parents can't be home tonight"

"i know, i know. they're always busy, i'm used to it"

yn threw herself on the bed, plugged her earphone in and hummed to a song. it was only a matter of time before her parents found out about her result and started scolding her.

"i'm so useless"

yn breathed out, tears started to form in her eyes.

she didn't remember since when did she even feel like this...

yn never had a chance to spend time with her parents because they were always on business trips. no talking, no family dinner, no hugging, nothing. she had a house, but not a home.

when she grew older, they pressured her with being the top student. they expected yn to excel in all of her test. they would never, ever, allowed she to have scores lower than 90.

and slowly, yn changed.

from a happy, energetic little girl. she became quiet, bottling up her emotions and suffering alone.

she fell into depression.

even though yn kept denying it but she, herself, acknowledged the changes in her body.

the way she always felt tired, skipped her meal, she zoned out more often, a lot of bad comments on herself,

and death kept haunting her mind, forever.

yn felt trapped and hopeless.

at some point, she hurt herself to free up her emotions by turning them into physical pain which she could easily control.

more and more cuts started to appear on her wrist, from a scratch to a very very deep cut.

that's why she always wearing a long sleeve clothes. so no one would know how broken she was.

gotta be honest, she was quite good at acting okay, no one had ever doubt her. at least she was good at something.

yn looked at her phone, it was 23:47. she couldn't sleep so she decided to go out for a walk.

yn put on a coat and walked outside. strolling down the street, no one was here since it was almost midnight.

yn sat down on a swing, stared in the air. her mind went through all of the memories from the young age till now. she found nothing to motivate her to continue living so why not die instead.

"the world would be better without me..."

and yn couldn't control herself anymore. she walked unconsciously toward the street where a huge truck was going on a high speed.

"yn!!"

a hand reached out and pulled her back.

it was hyukkyu.

his eyes filled with panic and worry.

"yn..are you okay?"

nothing but silence.

"yn, please answer me"

"why?"

"huh?"

"why did you do that? why did you pull me back?"

"are you crazy? you could have died!!"

"so what? it would be better that way!!"

"no, it wouldn't!"

"please think for yourself, you have a great future ahead, don't give up just yet. and..and your parents, they would be so sad if you were gone"

"no, they wouldn't. they never care for me. those stupid numbers are what they care"

"no one care..."

yn mumbled, tears ran down her cheeks.

"i care"

"please, i care for you. so please don't say that no one care, i still and i will always care for you"

"you're lying"

"no, i'm not"

"yes, yes you are! you're always calling me names!"

"kitten.."

"see!!"

"i just thought it was cute since.. you know, you loves cat"

hyukkyu shyly admitted, looking away to avoid yn's eyes.

his words made yn blush. he thinks she was cute..

"i..actually i..i like you"

hyukkyu once again made yn blush, harder this time.

"since grade 7 to be honest. that's why i strove to study harder. maybe..maybe you would notice me"

his confession really surprised yn. he had been trying so hard to get her attention for 6 years, non-stop.

"to me, you're really smart, pretty and kind. please don't let those trash number define you. being number 2 doesn't mean you're stupid. and no one is perfect so you don't have to try to excel in every aspect. just be yourself, enjoy your life"

"hyukkyu...i..thank you"

"you're welcome"

"so promise me you won't do that again, kay? no more walking into the street like that"

hyukkyu held up his finger waiting for yn to do the pinky promise.

"i'll try"

"now let me escort you home. walking alone at night is dangerous, specially for pretty woman like you"

"stop it!"

yn giggled, hitting hyukkyu's shoulder.

maybe god didn't want to take yn away yet. so he sent her a light of hope, he sent her hyukkyu.

when no one cared, he reached his hand out to help yn. he showed her that life had more than just a number. life was about having fun.

maybe she was finally saved.

or so she thought.

days went by and her mental health did not get better. instead, it went down to the very bottom.

no matter how hard yn tried not to be pessimistic but she couldn't help but felt depressed.

but she was too scared to ask for help. so she did what she was the best at, staying silence.

and the dark hole started eating her slowly and slowly till she's completely drown in the dark.

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sorry, the number you have dialed cannot be reached.

it had been the seventh time. hyukkyu had been calling yn since the morning because she was absent from school. he was worried so he decided to skip the last two lessons to visit yn.

"miss lee is in her room"

the butler bowed as he saw hyukkyu walking in.

"yn?"

hyukkyu knocked on the door twice before turning the doorknob. the in front scene shocked him.

in the middle of the room, there was yn laying in a puddle of blood.

he hurriedly picked her up and rushed to the hospital.

after quite a time, a doctor walked out. his eyes fixed on hyukkyu as he cleared his throat which clearly snapped hyukkyu out of his thought.

"doctor? how..how is she?"

"i'm so sorry. we did our best but she lost a lot of blood. please consider visit her one last time. may i be excused"

after informing hyukkyu, the doctor quickly walked away leaving him some time to visit the patient one last time.

holding yn's hand, tears streamed down on his cheeks as he gently stroke her hand.

"yn..didn't you promise me..why..why.."

he cried, a lot.

if only he had paid more attention to her feeling, would he be able to change the future? would she still be with him?

he hated that he didn't have the chance to hold her hand and whispered to her ear 'i love you' a million times. he hated that he wouldn't be able to see her eyes, her smile nor hearing her voice again. and it completely broke him.

"i hope you find happiness in the other life. i promise, i will find you. no matter what, i will find you in my next life even if it means waiting a thousand years. i will find you, my dear yn"

HOÀN

lâu rồi không viết sad ending, nhớ quá (~￣³￣)~
nay cho phép tui làm màu tí haha, hẳn một chap bằng tiếng anh
coi như là để học thêm từ vựng tiếng anh vậy hí
nếu phát hiện sai chính tả hay ngữ pháp gì đó thì báo cho tớ với nhé <3 nhờ các bạn chuyên anh giúp hjhj (ʃƪ ˘ ³˘)