Durga's pov ~

I stood in front of the mirror gazing at myself. I look different ,completely different. I thought i was suppose to just do around as i am told and look pretty for him , for my husband but i can't help but admire myself , my beauty. Standing in my glory, i am draped in a beautiful maroon banarasi saree with minimal jewelry , my eyes coated with kajal and my lips tinted pink .

I was asked to be ready before the barat arrives so my bhabisa took the responsibility to get me ready before the muhurat and now she's gone to help my maa with the guests after dolling me up .

As i look in the mirror i see a new girl , almost as if she's still left to find her identity, and think back about the childhood that i am suppose to leave behind after today. The childhood which embraced me and had given me everything and all bits of parts of happiness.

A knock on the door jolts me back from my daydreaming . I turned around to find my bhaisa and bhabisa entering the room.

"Ye rakh apne pas tu , ajj wasebhi bohot kuch mila han tujhe ye wala haar kabhi aur pehenlena " after approaching me bhaisa forwarded a purple box on my hand ." Ye kya han bhaisa ?" I asked. " haar han aur kya , shagun dena parta han dulhan ko toh ye humdono ke taraf se " he replied back. " sukriya " i responded accepting the gift .

"Ab jab asli kam ho gaya han , dhyan se sun mujhe, soola saal tak tujhe palaa han ab shaadi ke bad tu apne pati ki zimedari han toh theek se rehna aur ek baat shikayat nhi ani chahiya koi , humare ghar ka nak kata toh gaala daba dunga " i nod in response scared to get punished .

"Rashmi , Durga ko leke jaldi neeche aa barat shayad a gaya han " with this he left the room leaving me and bhabisa alone for some time .

My orbs fell at the purple box on my hand , not feeling quite deserving of the gift .

I can feel bhabisa's gaze on my face while i observe the work on the neck piece.

Keeping the box on my bed i look at her . " bohut bohut sukriya bhabisa, ye haar bohut sundar han " i only got a smile in response. But a familiar look still lingers her face , i know the look it's the look of pity . I have been getting soo many pity looks from my maa and now bhabisa.

" betu , mujhe toharse kachu baat karni han " bhabisa asks looking up at me ,meeting me gaze.

I nod for her to proceed. For the past couple of days since the time when my wedding date was announced i have noticed a very subtle and awkward behavior in my maa and bhabisa.

" idhar aa mere pas ake thora baith , ka pata phir kab ek sath gappe marne ka mauka milega " i move towards and sit on the bed beside her .

She cups my face gently before speaking;" betu shaadi ek bohutei bari zimedari han jisse hamesha sacche dil se nibhana bhi parta han aur kabhu kabhu man ko sakqt rakhke sehen karna bhi parta han " " samjhi " i frown at her .

"Samajh me nahi aya kachu bhabisa " her fingers stoke my cheek softly as she spoke again " tu hamari sabse pyari bacchi han betu hamesha yaad rakhiyo ye baat, abb tu ek nayi jagah jayegi udharke niyam shayad bohutei alag hoga bas tu theek se nibhana sab kuch " " nibhayegi na ?" her eyes longs for an assurance so i quickly replied " bilkul , app chinta na kare " .

" betu aur ekk baat jo tujhe hamesha yaad rakhni han , kabhi .. kabhi bhi agar jamaisa terese kuchu karne ko bole kabhu unhe mana mat kariyo , thik han ? "

I again frown at her . " aur agar me ghar ke dusre kam kaj se vayast rahi toh , tab ka karungi mein ?" I further ask her .

Her smile is completely gone now replaced with a haunted expression. " hayy bhagwan! hamau matlab kuch alag han " i exclaimed .

"Dekh ye mard jaat ke kayi tarha ki bhuk hoti han , aur jab bhi jamaisa aisa waisa kachu karna chahe toh mana mat kario bas " i turn completely at her frowning at her twisted words.

"Bhabisa hamau dimaag me kachu nahi ghus raho han " i exclaimed throwing my hands in the air .

" Bailbuddhi , ka Samajh me awe han phir tujhe han , kaise bageche se aamm chunara han, kaise chupke chupke devarsa jab padhte han tab unke kamre me jake chori chupe padhna han yehi sab karti reh "

" sun suhagrat ke din har pati apne patni ko chuta han aur patni ka farz hota han ki pati ko na roke " she said to me .

"Chuta han ? Par kaha ?" I further ask her .

She points her fingers down towards my vagina. " neeche " she replies.

" Aur sun thora bohot dard bhi hoga par samay ke sath sab theek ho jayega , agar bohut dard de toh chillana nahi apna muh dhak ke unhe jo karna han unhe bas karne dena "

I frown at her words, if this is what every husband and wife does than my bhaisa has done the same with her . I knew about suhagrat Malini once told me about how her husband kissed her on the lips and groped her clothed boobs and how fluttering she felt but never once she mentioned about any kind of pain .

So out for the urge to know more i ask her " bhaisa bhi apke sath ye sab kiye the ? ap ko bhi dard hua tha kya ?"

Bhabisa stood up abruptly and glared at her and i stilled in my place.

"Chammat marungi agar phir se ye sab mujhse pucha toh ,besharam hoti ja rahi han din bar din . Kuchi ghanton mein shaadi han iski aur zuban toh dekho " she fumed at me but soon relaxed when she saw me getting out of the hold of my nerves .

She released a long breath and soften her gaze before speaking" haa babu hua tha mujhe bhi dard but fir samay ne sab kuch theek kar diya "

"Bhabisa app naraz na hoy hamare upar , hum bachpan se apko jante han aur tab se hi ap hamau saheli thi . Iss ghar me app aur maa ko chorke hamau se baat karta hi kon han , bachpan se ajj tak dil khul ke jo bhi puchna tha app hi dono se toh puchte the toh ajj bhi puch liya ... mujhe maff karde " i clutched her hand tightly and let some tears fell loose .

"Koi na , chalo maf kia " she bend down and kissed my head and gave me her one of the warmest smile.

" Hamau baat yaad rakhna , kam me ayega , abb tum ansoo pochlo aur dhunghat nak tak khich lo , bahar halla ho raha han shayad barat pohoch chuki han angan tak , hum dekh ke kuchi der me laut te han " she again kissed my head and gave my hand a small squeeze before rushing out of the room.

I do as she told me , i pull my veil till my nose and pat dry my tears with my hands and plant a big smile on my face . I am ready for this wedding and i am going to make it work.

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