I,
Love,
Summer!!!!!!!!!!

Aaaaahahahhaha sorry now that we're mid May I just had to say something

I've always been very drawn to warmth and swimming and sun, plus I was born close to noon in a desert in June (so close!!!) so I'm pretty much meant to love warmth

Here in the desert, we do get more scorpions this time of year, which I hate, but also monsoons!!! Which I absolutely LOVE they're the best every time, they usually start around July though so we'll get there when we get there

I'm actually planning on cleaning up my profile sometime soon in honor of summer but I'm waiting until I can make a new profile picture first lol

Also,, I hate to complain and act all self-deprecating, especially about something I've already done that to, but this is supposed to be a place to vent,,,

I'm only 15 pounds under the minimum good weight or whatever for my height and that really, really concerns me, especially with my thighs, I can't fit both hands around them

And,, I dunno, I get really insecure around some of my friends, I have to remind myself that they're like 5'0" they're supposed to weigh less but I miss 90 pounds so much

Sometimes I want to work out more and eat less and actively try to lose weight because pretty girl models weigh less but I also get scared that I'll go too far like others,,,, and then there's that tiny voice that says that there is no 'too far'

That's not my greatest concern, though, I don't think I'll ever go through with something like that

Weird last thought, ever since the beginning of the year I've stopped eating lunch and now I get a small snack instead, it's not a huge difference but I no longer feel hungry until like 3:00 and I wonder if this is why

But I have it fine, this is no big deal, I just had to type this all out

I actually feel a lot better now

I think I'm gonna regret posting this though,,, ohno