Alright, as you might've gathered from the last part, I've generally thought of myself as a very gay straight person as of late

I don't mean that in a stereotypical way, more as in I tend to think of girls as pretty? And I'm not afraid to think that way??

After saying something like that, I sound as if I'm bi, aka girls and guys are cute, yet I've never felt I was bi and it's really hard to find concrete evidence,, after all, despite being a hopeless romantic, I've only ever had one crush, and itwasonagoddamncartooncharacter, one who happened to be 100% male

At one point people in a group chat jokingly rated how boy crazy everyone was from most to least and I was least every time, which I found pretty accurate! I just don't crush easily, and at this point it's starting to get concerning, because I'd very much like to have a boyfriend!!

Of course, that's just because I'm a teenager, while it's not true for everyone I am biologically programmed to want a boyfriend at this point

I realize being rated least boy crazy might make it seem as if I'm actually just girl crazy, but I don't feel that way? I don't even feel interest in girls like I do for guys, I've just been in situations where I looked at a girl, thought, 'holy shit . . . ' and then went along with my day

I checked my bio and noticed I have heteroflexible listed as my sexuality,, is that accurate? I don't know man, I put it there a while back because I heard it meant essentially what I've been rambling about, being a very gay straight person

At this point I'm pretty sure I can just appreciate the beauty in girls and get kinda flustered over it without getting that same heart flutter I can around guys [trust me, when I had that dumb crush, I crushed hARD], but I really don't know what to think man