@/ryker (☞・ヮ・)☞
I have a ramble so first here's a bit of the Nerd Program gc

[^shorter than me lmaooo – ]

We're all Suffering cause we collectively failed the English test today
Well I mean nerd failed, all the scores I saw were 70-85, even the smart kids?? Like I got an 85 damn

I'm not too upset, it dropped my grade from a 97 to an 88, unlike a lot of others which went to low b's and c's, and we have two assessment grades coming up, one which I already turned in and put a fUCKton of effort into and another that's a test tomorrow and I mean,, I'm more confident about it than I was about today's

Lol now I have 2 b's [that I know of,, none of the Spanish tests are in grrr r] and they're both 88s

Anyway, I do actually have a reason for wasting a precious part [I got the covers ready!! I just have to draw a new icon some time] and it's,,

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No but seriously I do need to vent about this shhskshsh okay so

Today, specifically this morning before class, I had a breakdown in the school hallway

I think you'd call it a breakdown?? I don't fucking know I don't want to over exaggerate,, I started hyperventilating and sobbing uncontrollably and I put my face in my hands, I got really light-headed and,, when I stopped I pulled my hand back and I had a bloody nose?? It was weird, we think that part was a coincidence

So whatever you'd call that, if you know please hmu I don't want to be uninformed

It was for a really dumb reason too,,, details are fucking annoying but this morning I couldn't find the first half of that assignment I mentioned earlier and I almost missed the bus finding it, my dad had to drive me to the second stop, then when I got to school I realized I had left the second half at home and I was such a pussy I couldn't take it

I feel so bad for embarrassing Ryker and his friend/my acquaintance,, if you read this I'm sorry my man, I sit next to them in the morning and we talk with Diadem and Queenie once they get to school

Speaking of which, once they arrived they were thankfully able to calm me down,, especially Diadem, like all my friends she's an absolute angel and helped me understand that I could make it all work out [which it did by the way! My mom was able to bring the papers at the last possible second before they got turned in]

In case you can't tell this is also a bit of a post gushing about how much I love my friends hdkshshshjs they're just so NICE and CARING and GREAT they're TOO GOOD FOR ME I LOVE THEM

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But yea, I just don't understand how people can reign in emotions at school and bottle things up,,,, not that I don't do that, damn, if only people knew, but,,, situations like whatever this is called are impossible to hide for me, I was full out crying in the main mall

If this was last year I would've been mortified, but now I know that either no one cares because this is high school and everyone's dead inside or they do care and it's either because they're nice and worth showing your emotions to or a bitch who's not worth your time,, at least, that's how I look at it, makes it easier to work on that whole being yourself deal

I also fucked up my makeup duh which is super fun, but hey it wasn't too bad I guess,, I mainly just smudged the eyeliner a bit

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