Get it because I'm talking about friends and I don't know where life will take me throughout its course

I shouldn't really get to make a reference like that because I don't watch Friends but I did anyway oops

Buckle up kiddos mama pearl's got a ton of unimportant babbles to spew

OKAY so this week,,, kinda sucked I wish it was better than the last but again, my richie standards are different it's not actually hard, but for a lot of people I know it's been way worse, offline, online, a ton of my good friends

And it really hurts to see because despite my INFJ "counselor type" about the best support I can offer is a silence to let someone vent, I'm really terrible at cheering others up and it's annoying

Like Rari was always my favorite but lately Pinkie is my role model?? If that makes any sense??? Well, definitely not Pinkie as a whole, but her mindset of making others smile and laugh and her element in general

I'm bad at "I've been there" or "here's some eye witness advice" anecdotes because I've never had real struggles in life, and I feel as if I interject at the worst of times

But the main thing I want to talk about here is the why, not the how not, because last year sucked

Why does that matter?

Last year I was a friend parasite, clinging onto the only friends I had and managing to stay because I'd been there since fifth grade, I had bit the biggest animal in popularity if you will

This year I've got friends who also didn't like last year (for different reasons but it's no big surprise, I think eighth grade was my biggest low so far) and they're just so kind and caring, I'll ramble and they won't mind my complaining, venting isn't even always that common even though I encourage it

And they all have so much stress going on right now, especially Empress who I just want to help

Not to mention those online, quite a few of you seem alright which is good (I apologize for never responding about your days last part, I totally blew it off but do know that I read them) yet some people seem to be going through a lot as well and all I want to do is help but I don't really know where to start

But at least I've found people who a selfish one like me can care so deeply for, for all I know I won't be friends with any of them after freshman year much less LIFE but I'm just happy to have people I can trust and be comfortable around