I've been meaning to bring this up, it's pretty unimportant but it's wrecking with my study time

Okay so some days (like today) I get home from school and I have a ton of work to do, and I go in my room and put on some speedpaints and/or SciShow videos, but then I just . . . lie there. It's not like general laziness or procrastination, because instead of flipping through animations and ignoring my homework I just lay around. It's usually a struggle to change the video because my fingers don't want to move a ton

It's not like I feel sad, either, in fact, my emotions usually kinda seep away? At first all the things I'm feeling are super prominent but after a few minutes I'm only thinking about the video. Except, of course, for the underlying worry, which suddenly spikes up and dies down when I get a reminder of what I should be doing, which can result in weird hyperventilating moments

It really does slow me down, y'know? I feel like I'm moving through jello and my head feels fuzzy. I'm a super fast typer thanks to being privilegedly phone addicted, yet this is taking me much longer to get done than usual. If it happens late at night instead of in the afternoon/evening, I sometimes just lay on my bed spread eagle and stare at the ceiling with my fairy lights turned on and the videos long forgotten

It's getting kinda scary, I don't really know why it happens and it makes it hard to get anything done, yet every time I think about it or even just when I'm typing it out here it just seems like procrastination, I'll bet it really is just laziness but I worry, worry, worry

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