Dear the girl who wants me to keep talking about how I'm feeling,

I can't believe my dad helped come up with that nickname. I'm honestly not surprised if my dad also hated Snape along with Snuffles and Remus, especially if Snape acts anything like the way he does with me.

Yeah, my dad does sound awesome. I just wish I knew more about him. And mum.

I reckon Chloe will always hold a grudge against you for what happened. If I were her, I definitely wouldn't be forgetting it anytime soon.

You're joking, right? Me, get good grades in Potions? I'm more likely to wake up as a Seer than I am to get a decent grade in Potions. I mean I am rubbish at Potions but half of my bad grades are Snape's fault. If I had a decent, unbiased teacher than I feel like I could at least scrape a pass grade but unfortunately I do not have a decent teacher so I've already gotten used to the fact that I'm going to fail my Potions O.W.L. But I agree, it would be good to get a good grade in Potions just to prove to everyone that I'm not entirely stupid.

It doesn't take a wise person to come up with a bunch of nicknames El. But if it makes you happy, then of course you're wise. I have never met anyone more wise than Eleanor Summers.

Thank you, Ellie. I still feel guilty for always coming to you to talk but you're honestly one of the easiest people to talk too. You listen and you give advice but you don't dwell on it for too long, you still treat me normally afterwards and always crack a joke to make me feel better.

I've tried to talk to Ron and Hermione too about some of the stuff I've mentioned to you but they just think I'm going soft, and then for weeks they will give me this look when they think I'm not looking that tells me they think I've gone mad. Or they look at me as if I'm a grenade that'll explode at any moment.

Don't get me wrong, Ron and Hermione are my best friends. I'd do anything for them and they are honestly amazing. And they do help me. They've given me advice in the past and Ron always makes me laugh and feel normal but I also feel like they've gripped onto this idea of me being some hero and if I show the slightest bit of weakness they think I'm cracking. It gets a bit tiring and frustrating sometimes. Especially now more than ever, I feel like I'm always pretending around them. It also makes me feel guilty.

And yes, talking to you helps a lot. I can't express how much it helps.

Don't worry, I know how important these lessons with Snape are. I'm being a good boy and I promise not to do anything reckless.

You know I never pieced that together, that Dumbledore may have hired Firenze on purpose to get back at Umbridge. I don't even think Hermione had thought of it. But it makes sense. Umbridge hates 'half-breeds' and Dumbledore suddenly hires one. I admit, if that was Dumbledore's intentions then it was incredibly smart of him.

And yeah, Hagrid's mother was a giant. And Hagrid's dad was a regular human. Don't ask me how that relationship worked because I have absolutely no idea.

I'm really glad things are going back to normal for you at school now. How are things with your classes? Are they making you do extra work and preparation for your exams coming up soon?

What am I going to do with you, El, huh? You make me laugh so much. You could cry, but you won't? You really are something special. Don't ever change. Ever.

And if that's the most romantic thing anyone has ever said to you, well then I guess I'll have to up my game a bit, won't I?

Love,

your golden boy.

(I'm so so sorry updates have been slow recently. They might continue to be for a while. Honestly life hasn't been great recently, and I've had some very bad news given to me lately, so I apologise if my updates are slower for a while because this news I've been given is something that isn't going to go away for a while. Just to be clear, its nothing to do with Covid-19. Anyway, I don't want any of you to think that I'm not going to finish this story. I'm still motivated and I know exactly how this story is ending. I will finish it, I promise. I just might not be able to update every week like I used to. I promise I will try and get back onto my regular update system soon. I love you guys so much and I'm so thankful for all the love and support you always show me. Anyway, I'll leave this here otherwise its going to be super long. Stay safe everyone, until next time.)