mid-autumn
midnight
it's raining outside
i'm raining inside

“you're crazy” she said
“and heartless” she added
“i'm crazy” i say
“and never feel anything” also

it's hard to sleep
as the rain continues
the rain keeps falling down
a few on the cheeks

i smile
she thinks i'm normal
i cry
she thinks i'm like usual
but
i can never be
as normal as she thinks i always am

mid-autumn
midnight
looking at the night sky
“mother, i really can never

shine”