You will never find rainbow if you are looking down.

Y/N:

I couldn't utter a single word. I mean I didn't expect him to pop this question this soon. I did tell him I am not sure about my feelings. But I realized I still love him when he saved me from Blake. I never said it loud but he was my first love too. I always admired him for his knowledge and the compassion he has for others. But that faded away when he started ignoring me. I kept telling my heart I don't like him so I can ignore the pain but those feelings never went away.

May be my heart know from the start that he will be my mate. If only he wasn't arrogant before we would have been happy by now. "y/n..." I snapped out of my thoughts and realized I haven't given any answer to him. He seems really nervous which made my heart swell with happiness because he does care about me. But I don't want to risk anything again. "Are you sure about your feelings?"

"I have been never so sure about anything else till now" I nodded my head. "Fine, I will give you another chance" his eyes brightened instantly and he was so happy. "But" I paused observing him. "I want you to know about me completely before you make any decision" I won't hide anything from him. Any relation will happen only  based on trust and communication so he has to know what happened to me. No more secrets now. "I will listen though it won't change my decision"

"Why don't you get ready? We can go out and talk" he suggested making me laugh. "Why do you always want to go out when I ask you to talk?" he grinned. "So that I can get a chance to spend quality time with you. Besides, I am fed up with this hospital room" he looked around the room looking stressed. "Fine, I will talk with Hoseok then" he shook his head. "I will inform him later" he started taking his things. "Won't he be mad?" I took bag from him to help. "I am his alpha so I will take care of it" I glared at him knowing he will use his power. He ignored me and walked out of the room.

I quickly followed him. "I will wait for you at the car. Come down when you are ready" he pecked my forehead leaving me surprised. I slowly made my way to my room and changed in to casual clothes. I was wearing black jeans with flannel shirt with white t-shirt inside it. I tied my shoes and took the phone before going downstairs.

It hardly took me twenty minutes but Namjoon was already waiting for me at the car. He was dressed in blue jeans and white buttoned shirt with a jean jacket on it. "You came fast" he opened the car door for me. "I couldn't wait for long" his words always made me blush easily. "Where are we going?" he didn't answer me. "Oye" I poked his arm and he looked at me confused.

"Where are we going?" he looked away smiling. "You will see" I scoffed in annoyance. "Why does all the boys do this when we ask this question?" he chuckled at my words. "Maybe they like surprising people" I rolled my eyes. "But I hate surprises" he shook his head. "You love surprises" he said referring to the old times. "Not anymore" I mumbled lowly but I am sure he heard me. "You wanted to tell me something"

"Not like this" I know he is changing the topic but did he seriously expect me to tell him in the middle of the road. "We are here" he stopped the car in front of a small house. It was located in the middle of woods around ten minutes distance from the pack house. I looked at him confused of why he would bring me here. He got out and opened my door. I got out and followed him. He unlocked the door with the key and gestured me to go in.

"Do you remember this house?" I looked around trying to remember but nothing came to mind. "This is our farm house. We used to play here when we were kids. You loved coming here" I tried hard to think but only few glimpses are all I got. "I am sorry, I can't remember much" I said earning a nod from him. "No issues. I wanted to bring you here when I find you but things didn't go as I planned"

"I am glad you are here now" I smiled and walked inside exploring the house. "It is really beautiful" I said when I saw the garden. It was decorated with lot of plants and birds. "I am glad you like it" he took my hand guiding me to the lounge where few chairs were placed. "Sit here, I will bring something to eat" he disappeared in to house while I sat observing the birds in garden. "Here" he placed the plates on the table and took seat opposite to me.

"So..." he dragged the word. "I am sure you have lot of things to ask me" he nodded his head and thought. Probably about what to ask. "First thing I want to know, what happened when you were -" he paused. "Kidnapped?" I completed the sentence for him and he nodded. "I was taken to rogues spot and they asked me to join them" he looked shocked. "Victor was their leader at that time. He conducted some trials where we had to pass them to join. It was either that or die in the cell. So, we chose to join them"

"What do you mean by we?" he asked again. "Me and Chorong" I looked at him. "She was kidnapped too from Blake pack. She didn't want to go back so she joined them" I waited for him to ask me something else. "How did you join Taehyung pack?" I thought back to that time not knowing how to tell him about Areum. "He told me you saved his mate" I stared at him wide eyed. "Taehyung talked to me today. He did tell me some things"

"Victor planned to kidnap his mate Areum. But when we realized what he is doing we helped her escape and she led us to his pack" I paused remembering that time. "Chorong found her mate there who happened to be my brother" I chuckled realizing how everything happened till now. "Then Taehyung asked me to join his pack along with Chorong" I told him some of things happened in his pack.

"There is one more thing I want to ask. You have to answer me truthfully" I nodded my head. "Do you love Taehyung?" this question caught me off guard. How can I answer him when I don't know the answer to that myself? I am not sure but I do like him. "I don't know myself but all I know is he is major part of my life and always will be" Namjoon didn't look disappointed. His expression was like he knows he will get this answer. I know he is not happy. No mate would like to hear that from his mate.

"I am sorry Namjoon. I know what you are thinking" he placed his hand on my mouth. "You shouldn't be saying sorry. I understand you have a special bond with Taehyung" I didn't realize he pulled his chair closer to mine till then. "If you think I will leave you after listening to what you went through then you are wrong. You suffered a lot and still standing here in front of me strongly. This makes me loves you more. Don't ever think I will leave you again" he caressed my cheek making me look at him.

The closeness was driving me crazy. Is this how you feel when you are close to your mate? If that is the case I am going to die soon. I saw he was glancing at my lips then at my eyes. It felt like he was asking permission from his gaze. I closed my eyes aware of his stare. Soon I felt his lips on mine. It felt like my whole body was tingling. I slowly kissed back and he groaned pulling me closer to him. The kiss was soft but now he was kissing me roughly like this is the last kiss we will share.

I moaned when he grabbed my hips to pull me closer and run my fingers through his hair. "I can't stop if you keep doing that" he whispered huskily when he pulled away from the kiss. I blushed hiding my face in his chest. "Who said about stopping?" I asked raising an eyebrow. I just said that to tease him but he pushed me away instantly.

"Please don't say those things until you are sure" I can see he is trying hard to control his wolf. "I am sorry" I gulped looking at his eyes. "I don't want to make anymore mistakes. I marked you  against your will. I can't take advantage of your state. I want us to be like normal mates" I laughed hearing him. "Why are you laughing?" he frowned.

"We are not normal mates Namjoon. You rejected me when you find out I am your mate. You confessed your feelings in cemetery and our first kiss was when I fainted. You marked me cause you are jealous. You accepted me when I said I was a rouge. Does any of this sound normal to you?" I heard him sigh. "I guess you are right" I chuckled looking at him. "We are not normal but that doesn't mean it is bad right?"

"Yes it is not" I turned around so that I can look at the garden and he pulled me close so that I am laying on his chest and his arms wrapped around mine. We stayed like that for few minutes until the sky was turning dark. "I think we should go" I nodded my head getting up. "I will place this in the kitchen" he referred to the plates and I walked out from the backside. He came soon and got in the car and I did the same.

We were silent in the car until my phone rang. "Hello?" I answered without checking the caller id. "y/n, where are you?" I looked at the phone and saw Yoongi oppa number. "I am with Namjoon. I am coming home" I heard him sigh. "Mom wanted to see you. I don't know how but she found out about you" I heard shuffling behind him. "How is she?" I wasn't worried about me but her. I can't risk her health. "She is fine. She wants to talk to you" I nodded my head then realized he can't see me. "I will go and meet her"

"What happened?" Namjoon asked me when I ended the call. "Mom know about us and she want to talk to me" I played with my phone thinking of how to tell her. "Do you want me to come with you?" I shook my head smiling. "I will handle it" he stopped the car when we reached pack house. I made my way to mom room directly. I knocked the door then peaked through to see her.

"Come here" she folded her arms glaring at me. "Hey mom" I smiled sheepishly sitting beside her. "You young lady has lot to explain" I pouted. "I am sorry mom" she shook her head. "That won't work on me" I sighed. "Why didn't you tell me?" I looked at her and saw she is sad. "You must know that it wasn't a happy story so I didn't tell you"

"You can't leave him y/n" I looked at her confused. "He is your protector. Your wolves are made for each other" my protector? She must have sensed my confusion. "I would have helped you if I know this from the start" she pulled the same book she was reading few days back. "It will help you solve lot of things" I took the book from her and looked at her. I guess I will have to read it.

AUTHOR NOTE:

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