First of all, I AM SO SORRY I DON'T DESERVE YOUR FORGIVENESS BUT I STILL WANT TO SAY I'M SO SO SORRY. I think I wasted your time with my half-baked story? Like, this was supposed to have 10 chapters more atleast and the end is so rushed or something?? I tried to tie up everything and I'm sorry but quarantine has put a full stop on my creativity and I just couldn't bear anymore so I decided to stop the story here (and there's more reasons... If you continue reading, you'll know.)

BUT! I'm gonna take this time to tell you everything I couldn't tell you in the story.

1) I started this story more than a year ago. It's been in my drafts for a really long time, and that's the main reason this book is so... Well, out of it.

2) This story has been really close to me, really private and raw for the most part– I have never let (y/n)'s and my similarities be this similar when I write my books. Some of the moments in this book have actually happened with me in real life, like the haircut and the Minho thingy.

3) The reason I couldn't write this book anymore was because... Well, you see, I wanted to write my journey in it. My journey of loving myself. But during the long time that this has been in my drafts, I have changed. I actually started loving myself. I have progressed so much that I felt out of link with the story.

4) And then I fucking realised that I can't do justice to you all. I wanted to give an open ending? I realised that everyone's journey will be different. I can't tell my story cuz it involves a lot of Bangtan (how do I put a BTS in a Taehyung x Reader set in an AU, I'm so stupid–).

5) But no matter. Let bygones be bygones. I'm sorry for wasting your time. Really.

6) I want to say something tho. "You are beautiful. From inside and outside." I know that there are 3 types of people reading this right now.  ① Those who have never heard anyone say this to them. ② Those who have seen this so many times but still can't make themselves believe. ③ Those who have seen this many times and do accept and follow it.

If you're 3, that's great! If you're 1, please believe me. And if you're 2... Trust me, I've been there. I've struggled like you have, to love myself with my flaws and it's hard, I know. It's discouraging at times to try and fail miserably and I understand. I've gone through this too. But I didn't give up. And look how far I've progressed!

I just want to say, that you should love yourself. If you don't, then start trying from today. It won't happen overnight (or maybe it will!) The time and pace is different for everyone.

It took me the consistent efforts of 1 and ¾ years to come till here. My new year's resolution for 2019 and 2020 have been to love myself. I never gave up on it even though it looked bleak and hard and impossible at times with how much I hated myself.

But I know you can do it. I believe in you so much because I know. If you're here, if you're trying then you will reach your goal someday. I want to tell you that I'm here. That I support your efforts.

If you ever feel too down, too bad, too overwhelmed– please feel free to drop me a message. I would never push you away. I will help you however I can. If it's with compliments, songs, books, anything. I am here to support you on your journey. 💜💜

ALSO SORRY FOR NOT GIVING YOU ANY ROMANTIC SCENES WITH TAEHYUNG. I LITERALLY DID NOT REALISE UNTIL NOW THAT I TOTALLY FORGOT THAT PART OF THE STORY.

So, um, that's basically all that I wanted to say. I hope you take everything I said seriously. Thank you for everything! I love you all so much (really, I truly truly mean it!)

AnimeLover67 / TeaJamsCookies signing out.