MY mouth parted as I looked on his face, I can't believe I just heard him say those embarrassing things "Do you really think I will do it with you right now, Natsu?"

He frowns "But you said Netflix and Chill," he said innocently "So I think you're asking about it"

I raised my hands in front of his face "First of all, I don't want to do it with you right now because I'm pretty sure that Kimmy will tease the hell out of us when she returned," he opens his mouth to say something but I just covered his mouth with my hand "Second, the meaning of Netflix and chill is not supposedly like that, you perv"

"Perv?" Natsu removed my hand on his mouth "Why me?" He dramatically says "Its not even my fault"

I scowl as I crossed my arms below my breast "Netflix is an online platform or application that wants to lead the online entertainment industry. It was created by Netflix Inc., with the aim to provide media services. Chill on the other hand means cold. But nowadays, people use it as slang for relaxing. So how come it become sexual?"

He stared in my face for I don't know how long like he was trying to understand my frustration because of the meaning 'Netflix and chill' in the society. After a few seconds, he let out a sigh and then he made held my chin and made me look at the TV again. I hit his hand and glared him which makes him chuckle.

"I just want to clarify it to you, Natsu," I say as turned my body to looked on him on his face "I forgive you"

"I know," he says with a smile on his lips "And I'm thankful for it baby"

"But I'm not ready to do it with you," I say "I want to take it slow"

"Why slow?" He gave me a confused look "It much better if we do it fast, you know" he says.

My cheeks blush not because of the butterflies inside my stomach but the frustration I am feeling right now "I really want to kill you right now, Natsu" I murmured under my breath.

Natsu laughed at me before he removes the strands of my hair and tucks it behind my ears, "Beautiful"

"Natsu!"

He chuckles "What?"

"Stop flirting on me while I'm being serious!"

Natsu laughed at me before he pulls me closer until I was sitting on his lap "I understand, that you want to make it slow. You don't need to explain your side for me, what really matters with me right now is you forgive me"

"But you're a man"

"I know, baby," he said "I'm fully aware of that part"

I pout my lips as I roll my eyes with him. "What I mean is, you have needs"

My eyes widen when all of a sudden Natsu kissed me on my lips. I was instantly enveloped by the magic of his kiss. I can hear my heart beating so fast that I think it will destroy my ribs any moment right now. I wanted to push him but it's like as if my whole body is not mine anymore... like he has the power of my entire being.

When he let go of my lips he presses his forehead into mine. His eyes, pained, as if the few inches apart between our bodies causing it, "Don't you know, baby"

"W-What?"

He leaned down and whispered right at my ear "Your kiss can satisfy my needs"

He looks at me with fondness in his eyes that mere looking on it makes me melt "But Natsu..."

"That's what makes you special, baby. We don't need to do it but I'm fully satisfied though I would love to do it with you, right now"

I blush but I didn't say anything to him because honestly speaking this if the very first time I learned Natsu has this kind of side.

I divert my eyes back to the TV and continue watching the movie, I can feel his stare on my face but I tried my best to focus on the movie. Eventually, I found myself being hooked up by the movie that we are watching. After one and a half hour, we reached the climax of the movie - I get the throw pillow right next to Natsu and hugged it. I tried to swallow my own sobs as I continue watching the movie.

"Baby?" I heard Natsu calling me.

I looked on him and my eyes got blurry with my own tears as I felt a single tear fell down on my cheeks that cue the others to follow "Yes?"

I tried not to cry as I wiped my own tears that falling down in my cheeks. But it feels like my own tears have their own mind because they keep on falling down. I looked on the screen again, life was just too unfair with Jess and Leslie! They're too young to experience those things.

"Why are you crying?"

"It's not fair" I bawled "Jess would live all his life blaming himself! He will be a broken man because Terabithia will not the same again without Leslie."

"Jesus, baby"

I sob as I looked back to his face "Don't say the Lord's name in vain"

Natsu let out a deep sigh as he gently wiped my tears. He picked up remote control before pressing the 'pause' button "What a cry baby are you, baby"

"I'm not a cry baby" I scowl.

Natsu smile to me before kissing the side of my left eye "Terabithia and Leslie will live through Jess" he murmurs.

"But it will never be same because Leslie is gone"

Natsu shrugged his shoulder "If you lose someone important to you, your life will be the same. You will always have this feeling of emptiness in your life and no one cannot fill even how hard you try."

I remembered the days I was in Dubrovnik, Croatia. That was the day I tried so hard to forget him, but I could feel the emptiness inside my heart that even I tried so hard to fill it - I still feel empty.

"Jess and Leslie could die together. If they were together that day, one would probably try to save the other person. They could have died just by trying to save one person. But God didn't let it, that even it will never be the same He let one person to live his life. Yes, the other person would probably live his life full of guilt and regrets for losing that someone on his life."

"But how can that be a good thing?" I whispered, "If you will get hurt by remembering that someone then why do you keep on thinking about the person?"

He gently caressed my cheeks "Because letting go is never be easy"