I shouldn't have watched TV earlier– now I have a fucking headache 💀

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"Sweetheart, why the tears?" Jaemin asks, worry laced in his tone as he immediately pulls Jeno into his arms.

The younger boy just continues to cry, making Jaemin furrow his eyebrows. "Are they sad tears or happy tears? Please tell me, baby." He softly says, caressing Jeno's back.

His lover hiccups and shakes his head, "s-scared tears." He replies, voice muffled against Jaemin's shirt.

He doesn't know if he wants to pull away from him or let himself feel comfortable in Jaemin's arms, despite the thoughts he's having right now.

But as soon as he felt a kiss placed on his crown, he whimpers and makes his decision to stay there.

Jaemin, of course grew even more worried seeing his wife bawling his eyes out, but even more confused as to why.

"Jen, sweetheart. Tell me why you're scared and crying, aren't you happy that we're going to have another baby?" He gently ask, pulling away to properly face his lover.

Jeno sniffles and covers his face with his hands, "i-it's dumb and ridiculous." He mumbles.

"What is?" Jaemin asks, hands moving up to Jeno's wrists and gently pries them away from his flushed face. "Tell me everything, baby. Your thoughts, worries– everything. Please."

He watches Jeno regain his proper breathing, hiccups mixing into it here and there as he sniffles. Then he opens his mouth to say;

"I'm sc-scared i-it'll happen again."

Jaemin raises a brow, still not getting it until Jeno looks at him in the eyes, anxiousness in his gaze. "I-I'm scared you'll leave me."

And it clicks.

Jeno's scared that Jaemin will leave him once he finds out he's pregnant– again.

It's not exactly the same as his pregnancy with Jisung, but it is a similar thing.

Jeno is pregnant unbeknownst to Jaemin until now. Well– it's better than last time, which Jaemin was completely unaware of.

But still, Jeno is scared of this pregnancy because he thinks it'll be like last time.

In Jeno's perspective, he thinks this pregnancy could make it or break it of what he has right now.

Jaemin could leave him at any time, legally married or not.

"Baby–"

"It's not th-that I don't t-trust you, I do. I really do trust you," Jeno said, cutting him off as he looks down to his lap.

His eyes flicker to Jaemin's hands gripping on his wrists, he gulps and continues. "B-but I can't help but think– that any time, you'd choose t-to leave."

"That someday, I'd be to-too much, or we b-both can't handle it, or you're n-not actually ready for th-this new baby."

He sniffles loudly and shakes his head, "it's rid-ridiculous, th-that after all this time, I'm still sc-scared." He says, more likely to himself.

Jaemin was silent for a moment, taking in everything Jeno had said. He understands, truly, he just can't believe what his old dumb and arrogant self could cause Jeno to be scared of it.

Then he lifts Jeno's hands up by his wrists and gently kisses his knuckles. Soon trailing his lips to his wrists and grasps Jeno's hands.

He squeezes them tightly for a second before sighing, "sweetheart, I understand what you're feeling and all those thoughts that you have right now."

"And I understand that you can't really control it, my old self did that anyway– I made you scared and have those thoughts."

"And I'm truly sorry." He said, Jeno's eyes widening as he shakily breathes out.

"H-wha– Jaem..."

"I mean it, darling. I know you didn't mean to act like this, or make me feel hurt or offended that you're scared of what you think I would do. But I want you to remember..."

He leans in to touch their foreheads together.

"That I would never, ever leave you. For anyone or anything else. No matter what, I'll always love you, Jisung and our new baby."

Jeno hiccups and pulls his hands away from Jaemin's grasp, wrapping his arms around the older boy's neck.

"If you have any worries like this or anything else you want to tell me, or even stressing about it and decided not to– please do let me know anyway." Jaemin said, his hands placing themselves on Jeno's waist.

"I want to know so I could be there to help you, to make sure you're not hurting. I want to prove it to you about how much I love you."

He lifts a hand up to Jeno's cheek and caresses it with his thumb, "this baby won't ruin anything. I love you and him or her, or even them." He chuckles.

Jeno lets out a small embarrassed whine as his husband snickers. "I'm just saying, maybe."

He kisses Jeno's eyes and smiles, "I appreciate you for telling me, baby."

"P-please don't be mad at me." Jeno pouts unconsciously and looks down again.

The older boy sighs, kissing his forehead and says, "I'm not mad, sweetheart. I'm in fact the opposite of any negative things or reactions you were thinking about."

He cups Jeno's face and makes him look up with his cheeks squished, "I'm so happy that we're going to have another mini us running around."

"Our family is growing little by little, and I love it." He said, "I think I'm already doing a great job being a dad, don't you think so? Jisung loves me." He grins.

Jeno rolls his eyes at him feeling cocky about it and pushes him away jokingly, "that's because you let him do things I told him not to." He grumbles.

"Still, I'm the best dad." Jaemin said, quite proud of it. "Jaemin junior–junior will be very lucky."

"We are not naming our next baby like that," Jeno glares at him weakly and shakes his head at his silliness. "And don't get too cocky, the start is usually really tiring."

"Newborn aren't that tiring." Jaemin waves him off, thinking his wife is being ridiculous.

Jeno rolls his eyes, "I warned you beforehand, so don't complain later." He said and laughs when Jaemin clicks his tongue.

He smiles again and pulls his husband into a soft kiss, "thank you, babe. For everything." He mumbles, cheeks turning pink.

Jaemin smiles as well, kissing back before pulling away reluctantly to look down to Jeno's stomach.

He adjusts his position on the couch so he could properly lean down to kiss his lover's said stomach, making the younger boy snort at him.

"It's not even visible yet." He said.

"But he's there, alright." Jaemin winks and earns a light smack on his head. "Ow!" He gasps dramatically to stare at Jeno's stomach.

"Did you see that, Jaemin junior-junior? Mommy just hit daddy!"

"Jaem, stop it. We're not naming our next baby with that and besides, we don't even know if it's a boy or a girl yet."

Jaemin ponders in thought before saying, "Jen Junior." With a teasing tone matched with his smirk.

"Jaem!"