The rain poured down on my window pane. Even television isn't cheering me up. Thanks for nothing 'Big Bang Theory'. My phone rang and I let it go to voice mail. I looked to see who it was with little interest. It was my brother. I wanted to smile. Knowing that someone cares made me feel warm. But not this time. My heart was broken and there was no superglue existent to piece it back together.
GOD! I wanted to yell at the top of my lungs.
If I would've never kissed Felix,  none of this would've happened!!! If Felix knew better not to kiss me, it would be all sunshine and rainbows!!! But it's not!!
My head hurt with all the deep thoughts climbing into my mind. My phone chimed again notifying me that Matt left me a voicemail. I picked it up and listened...

"Hey, adopted one. Just call me when you get the chance. I want to know what's wrong. Mark won't answer any of my calls and neither will Felix. Now you won't answer and I'm thinking you guys are either on the side of a cliff or if you guys are getting it on at a rave. Hehe. Well you know what to do so just call me whenever. Ok, bye!"
The voicemail ended and a stream of salty liquid rushed down my cheek. This time I let myself burst out into tears.
"IM SO SORRY FOR EVERYTHING, MARK!" I shouted through hot tears. My voice was raspy and unsteady as I said these words. If only Mark could actually hear me and if only he knew how I felt and how serious I was about it. I grabbed a nearby pillow and squeezed it. I wanted the pillow to be Marks body. I wanted to hold him tight and sob in his shirt. But I can't. He left me.

I stared at my phone for a good 5 minutes until I finally decided to call Matt back.
"Hey!" He said once he picked up. I didn't have time for wishy woshy stuff.
"Mark broke up with me." I said trying not to cry again.
"He what?!" Matt growled under his breath.
"Matthew, I don't know what to do!"
There was silence and I heard Matt in very faintly. "Amanda I'm gonna go to Marks house. I'll see you soon."

Without anything left to say. Matt hung up.

Oh God, I thought as I unsteadily put the phone down.
Matthew please don't hurt Mark.