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Chicago, May 23rd, 2014

Macarena's POV

.... It should be us....

.... I still love you....

I've lost count on how many times I've read his message. He's right, we are the ones who should be getting married. I'm happy for Santi and Millie, I truly am, however, their wedding announcement has triggered a feeling of depression and longing for my relationship with Jamie. I miss him so much that it physically pains me to be away from him. Which is why I can't believe the idiot was here, in Chicago, in my apartment building, a few meters away from me and didn't even bothered to come and say hi. Yes, I know everything that happened the night Chris and I returned from Vince's home. When I entered the elevator, Jamie, who was sitting in a car outside the building waiting for me, confronted Chris and they got into a fist fight where Chris got the worst part. Then Jamie left without looking back and Mr. McGregor helped Chris to his apartment to tend to his wounds and according to the kind man, he looked pretty bad shaped. Now the question is where is Chris and what got into Jamie to beat him and walk away? I'm so mad at both of them for not coming to me, because I am sure I was the reason for their fight. At least they should have the decency to talk to me. It's all a misunderstanding, I'm sure, however, Jamie keeps walking away from me. He doesn't know how to deal with our problems or with our relationship, if we still have one.

My thoughts were interrupted by the ring of the bell. I walked towards the door not knowing whether I would find Chris or Vince or, who knows, Jamie.

I opened the door to a wounded Chris. He is sporting a cut on the lip and a black eye.

Just wonderful!

NOT!

I glare at him.

"Top of the morning"

He gives me one of his infamous smiles, the one that used give me butterflies in the stomach. I just roll my eyes and let him in.

"Not funny! Why would you fight him?"

He let out a chuckle.

"That's the problem, Macarena. I didn't!"

"I can't believe you two! Why didn't you come to me?"

He walked straight to my coffee maker and pour himself some coffee.

"And you would have done, what?"

"Help you! Call him! I don't know!"

He sat on a stool and faced me.

"You would have gone after him"

"No I wouldn't!"

He raised an eyebrow.

"Ok! Yes, I would! But still I would have helped you and make him understand that whatever he thought was happening between us, it's not what he thinks!"

"He knows!"

Now it was my turn to raise an eyebrow.

"He knows what?"

"That we're close friends and that I like you"

He clenched his jaw. He was mad, well buddy, I am madder!

"WHAT???? You TOLD him?"

"Of course I did! It's the truth!"

At that moment I wanted to physically hurt him. I know Jamie. He doesn't take jealousy very well, he gets irrational. The last time he was jealous, it was in Ireland and he punched Eddie and walked away from me. I can't believe everything is repeating now! Oh please God! Tell me this isn't happening! I need to call Jamie. So I left Chris in the kitchen and ran to my bedroom, slamming the door after me.

I decided to call him on FaceTime. I needed to see his face. He might not answer. He sent me that message after his conversation with Chris though, so there's hope.

First ring....

My heart is beating so fast, as if I had just run a 5K marathon.

Second ring......

I started chewing on my cuticles. I tend to do that when I'm nervous. My manicurist hates me for that.

Third ring........

I'm about to hang up.

Connecting.......

My heart stops for the seconds it takes for me to see his face. I embrace myself and hold my breath.

Then his handsome face comes to screen. He has a beard growing. And he still has his mustache. His eyes are hidden behind a pair of the latest CalvinKlein sunglasses. His lips form into a small smile.

"Good morning, Macarena"

That's all it takes to put me in a state of anger. I'm fuming! How could he do that to me! He was here and didn't come to see me. He was so close. I'm dying to be in his arms and he walks away from me. I keep quiet as I'm trying to figure out what to say.

"Where's my talkative chica?"

"Not now Jamie! I'm mad!"

I scold him and he chuckles. God I miss him!

"I thought you would be. Now the question is, whom exactly are you mad at?"

I let out a exasperated sigh.

"AT YOU!"

He sighs and looks down. I take in his surroundings, it looks like he's in a garden, it's sunny where he is, which makes my heart ache because as we're speaking, it's raining in Chicago. He's left. He hasn't come to see me....

"And what exactly did I do for you to be this mad?"

I put the phone closer to my face trying to get into that screen and slap some sense into his hard head.

"Are you kidding me? You thought I wouldn't know that you were here! In Chicago! At my apartment building! And didn't even bothered to come see me!"

He takes off his sunglasses and pinches the bridge of his nose.

"I should have known that asshole was going to tell you everything!"

"It wasn't him! It was Mr. McGregor"

He stops and looks at me with curiosity in his blue eyes.

"And who would that gentleman be?"

"The doorman!"

He tries to suppress a smile and talks softly.

"I did go to Chicago to see you. The problem was what I saw. I hated seeing you with him. Why were you on a date with him?"

What?

WHAT?

"I was not on a date! We were having dinner at Vince's house! We are about to wrap this movie and Vince's wife made dinner for us. Dani was invited too, but she went to Cape Town to see Matt. Now tell me, why am I explaining to you when it's supposed to be the other way around? YOU were here and didn't come to me! You keep running away from me, from us! I'm getting tired of this!"

I looked into his eyes and saw the pain he felt after I finished telling him how I feel.

"Where's your engagement ring?"

"What?"

"Where is your engagement ring, Macarena?"

His voice was cold. It sent shivers down my spine. I reached for my necklace, the one holding my ring and pull it out for him to see.

He looks at it and the pain in his eyes become anger.

"Funny how I thought I have put that ring in your finger, not hidden in a necklace"

Really? He wants to be ironic? I can be ironic too.

"Funny how I thought YOU were my fiancé, still things got tough between us and you went and kissed another girl"

I regretted those words as soon as they left my mouth because the pain I saw in his eyes was unbearable.

"I guess I deserved that"

"No, you didn't. I'm sorry! I didn't mean to say that, I just...."

"Yes, you did! It's in your subconscious"

I shake my head to emphasize that what he's saying is wrong.

"No, I don't want to bring that back, I'm trying to forget that episode in our lives. I love you Jamie. I do. I have forgiven you. I'm ready to start over"

"If you are, why aren't you wearing your ring, The one I gave you?"

I play with my necklace and look at my ring lovingly.

"I don't know.... I guess.... I'm waiting for you to put it back on...."

I try avoiding his gaze but he's so quiet that I look up to watch him.

He's shocked. His eyes are wide and his expression shows his surprise.

"Macarena, no matter how mad I am at you, you always find a way to awe me, I am head over heels for you, but...."

Oh no!

He's going to break up with me.

"but it killed me seeing you with that asshole. You're right. I don't know how to deal with our relationship. You deserve better than me. I am just this stupid man madly in love with you who doesn't know how to treat you right. Captain Idiot is right, it's always you going after me. I need to redeem myself. I need to fight for you. Give me time baby. I promise I will make things right. I need to be the man you deserve so I can give you my last name. I love you, mi amor. I just need some time"

I wipe the tears that had begun to pour as soon as his speech started. I giggled a little when he mentioned Chris' infamous nickname. I know he loves me. I do understand the time he's asking me, however, it hurts me to know that I won't be seeing him any time soon. I guess I have to give him this. He's asking for time, the same thing I have asked him.

I decide to answer him and my voice comes out shaky.

"Time...... I beginning to hate it."

He chuckles.

"I know! Me too! But this time I feel it is the right thing to do. I need to win your love back so I can feel worthy of your love. I love you so much, Macarena! You have no idea how badly I want you to become Mrs. Dornan. I must do things right. I will let you go just for me to win you back. Don't worry! I'll be back soon"

I sob.

"Maqui, don't cry love!"

I try controlling myself.

"Please, don't take too long! I can't bear the distance between us"

"I won't. I promise"

I nod frantically and try giving him a smile.

"Do you know where I am?"

I shake my head no.

"Route 66"

I smile.

"Like McQueen?"

He chuckles and nods.

"Yes love! Remember when we watched the movie back in Brazil with Caio and Renato?"

His smile is warm. He surely loves my nephews.

"Yes, our first trip together"

"I was already in love with you, then"

I smile as my heart does pirouettes.

"Me too. I think I started loving you when you entered the meeting room, late, as usual"

I wink at him playfully and he rewards me with a smile, his shy smile, the one I love the most.

"Is time all you need?"

"Just for me to feel worthy of you. Ok?"

I nod. Wordless.

"I love you, Bonita!"

"Me too, mi amor, mucho" (my love, very much)

I blow him a kiss and he pretends to catch it and puts it on his heart.

And with that the screen goes black. He's gone. For how long? I don't know. It's incredible how every time we give a step forward we back up two steps! Time is what he wants. I surely hope this is the last time we are apart. I don't think I can bear living like this anymore. I walk towards the mirror and try to fix my makeup. Now I need to face the other man waiting for me outside this door. I need to settle once and for all our friendship's rules. I might hurt Captain America, but I can't afford loosing my Christian Grey.

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