I drove my way up

to the hospital

looking emotionless but

in utter fear.

I was texting while driving,

loving my nico, or rather

receiving my nico's love.

I was terrified and sterdy and

what the heck was happening

was all I could register out of

my own mouth

every day for the

past four days.

I reach the hospital

and park in the parking lot,

and I'm not sure why but I just

wait,

like I coward, even though

travis might just be awake and

needing me.

so I text nico

for another hour

just to keep myself

from not forgetting how to breathe.