Bill Cipher P.O.V

After a few days, I am a wreck. I am more of a wreck than I was when I first found my Pine Tree. I suppose I never really understood how much he changed me. I know that nothing will ever be the same without him. I have to do something.

I will not allow myself to sit around and mope. At first, I thought it would be good to give myself time to mourn. Now I realize that I am far better off if I try to get him back. I'm going a bit stir crazy.

Getting Pine Tree back will not be easy. I am already fully aware of this fact. Finding an alternate reality where he isn't dead will be quite difficult.

I told Dipper that he was the only version of himself that is in a relationship with me, but that isn't exactly true. Realities branch off based on decisions. Technically there could be a reality where I didn't leave that day. Although, I am an eternal being that can travel to any dimension. I know of my other selves and we can come together in other realities because we are the same entity. I told a small white lie so I wouldn't confuse Pine Tree.

I suppose the only issue now is finding a reality where I never left Pine Tree alone. I wanted to get him a ring. That is why I left. There has to be a reality where I decided to go another day. It would be impossible for me not to. Anything is possible when there are infinite realities.

The longer I think about it, the more I realize that I wish to avenge the death of my love. His murderer deserves to die a most painful death. No one hurts my Pine Tree and survives.

I will have to kill Dipper's attacker without him realizing. I would prefer to refrain from informing him of his own death in another reality. It could be rather traumatizing for him. I wouldn't want to stress him after just getting him back.

I decided to start my search for the alternate reality where I can find him again. It might take some time and there is no time like the present. Plus, with Time Baby out of the picture I can manipulate time as I please. I can travel to the exact date and relative time when I lost him.

Just the thought of having my Pine Tree again motivates me more than anything. Having the ability to hold him; to kiss him; to tell him just how much I love him; that is my motivation. The thoughts of what could be fuels me.

I won't stop until I get my Pine Tree back. He is the only one that I will ever love. There is never going to be anyone else. I will never stop trying to get him back. I will do anything to get him back. I love my Pine Tree more than my own existence.