i feel constantly ungrateful

i have friends, i have family

i have nothing to worry about

but i worry all the time

that my car will crash, that my parents will die

that it will be all my fault

i'm getting sadder and sadder

and for no good reason

i have a great life;

i want for nothing

and it's not because i care about others

i wish i could stop caring what they think

but i never will

i don't know where i'm going to go

because i'm not smart enough to make a dent in life or all of the problems we have

and i'm not selfish enough to solve the problems i have

and i'm not creative enough to write a good song

i'm not enough, in all the ways

i think i'm kind-but im not

sometimes i make my brother cry

more often i make myself cry

because i'm just not enough.