I don't understand why she looks at me like this. like she expects something of me. it makes me want to cry until my eyes are red. it scares me. I'm not sure why kat looks at me this way. sure, we are friends, but.. she looks like she wants more from me. but I have nothing to give. I am just a pathetic man. I don't even deserve my fathers name. so why does she look at me this way. I don't get it. I don't understand. maybe later on I will. I might ask her about it. why she looks at me the way she does. or why she always talks to me like she's in a rush. why she avoids talking to me when she's with cindy. why she gets mad at me when I try to ask her these things. I may never know. and perhaps that is for the best.

                                                                                   - Michael. A