hey children on mother earth :)

so i need you guys' help. something's been going on recently and I just feel so down about it and I don't know if I'm blowing it out of proportion.

Lately, I've been feeling really disconnected from my friends. Like I feel like they're neglecting me and forget that I exist?

I don't know maybe I'm an attention whore (excuse my lang) or something but like I just feel really weird around them now. In school, at lunch and breakfast I feel excluded both physically and socially. They don't even acknowledge the fact that I walk in the room anymore. They would just continue on with their convos and barely pay me any mind. sometimes there's people sitting in my usual spot and I have to sit at a table all alone.

Office hours is when we spend most of our time hanging out together. Now, I feel like everybody's hanging out around me and I'm just stuck there watching. It makes me feel sad and disgusted with myself, so I leave early. I leave early and again, they don't even acknowledge the fact that I'm leaving. No "Tatiana why are you leaving?" or "See you later."

Like I don't know if it's all in my head or if I'm being a bratty drama queen, whatever the case may be. But I feel this as a sense of rejection, and I have the worst fear of rejection. My teacher-friend told me that may just be anxiety getting to me, but i don't know. It just feels so weird. What do you guys think? I could really use some help :(

Okay well I have to go now.

(Also I'm going to performing a piece at my school's open mic december 1st. Exciting aye)

Пока пока

Take care

~tatiana🌺