Eren's point of view

I'll kill you all. I'll kill you. I'll kill you.
"Eren..."
A voice. So strange. Where am I.
"Eren!"
I'll kill them all.
"Eren!" I finally snapped out of it. Hm. Why am I in the dirt. Wait. Why are the cannons pointed at me and my friends? "Don't move you monster!" A man yelled out. Monster. "Eren... Why didn't you tell anyone you're a titan?!" Armin asked. This has happened? Me? A titan?was it from when I raged and injured myself?
"Tell me are you human or a titan..."
"I-I'm human!" I yelled out. It went silent. "Wrong answer kill them all..." It's when I blacked out again.
It went silent. I couldn't hear anymore of the frighten screams. The fighting. The beating I got from Levi in the courtroom.
After through the process of convincing the judge to keep me alive. I'm now being kept under military arrest . until they for sure need me . threat wise.
I wasn't sure why Levi convinced him to keep me alive. Am I threat..why me. Why must I be a titan. My worst fear are the titans but now I'm a titan. Karma. I rested my head on me knees in the cold dungeon I was kept in. No one was allowed to have any contact with me.
I was alone.

Months later I was a joined by Levi who accepted me to join his team. Only I wasn't accepted by them. They snickered and called me names . a freak. Titan lover....one of them. I never wanted to be a Titan. How could it be. I don't remember.

"Wakeup brat" Levi hissed. I tiredly woke up. "Yes sir!" I addressed. I sat up and levi glared at me. "Do your duties like the brat you are and be down for supper by 7:00, understand brat" he said. "Sir yes sir" he seemed pleased and walked out of my room.

I never really liked levi. He's called me names. He's made fun of me. He makes me feel like I'm worth less to the rest of the team.he's twice as hard on me and he gives me more things to do while the others can slack off. I understand he's corporal but I already have to put up enough. I walked down to the stalls and heard laughter. "Look, its the titan freak!" One said. "Yeah why don't you turn into one of them and get your things done faster haha" another said. I was getting furious with them, but I had to control it before I turn.

"Come on are you going to cry" "do you want your good for nothing mother to Carry you, oh yeah she's dead!" They laughed. No. No one makes fun of my mom! I launched myself at them and began to fight with them. I beat them senseless until levi stepped it and beat the daylight out of me. . . why can't I just be dead. I finally came back to my senses when I was tied up in my room . levi sitting across from me. Glaring at me . he stood up and walked towards me and punched me in the face. "Do you think your sorry ass can go around and start fights because you're a freak?!" He yelled.

He pulled my hair once I didn't answer. "Answer me you sorry ass brat!" I whined in pain. "No s-sir!" As tears strolled down my face. "Then why did you do so " he asked letting go. "I was fed up with it all...." I admitted. He stayed silent. "With what you pathetic brat" I looked at him with pain and anger.
"Do you know why?" I asked. His eyes were emotionless as if he couldn't give a damn about me.

"Do you know how much it hurts to know that I was the reason for my mothers death, i couldn't fucking help her when she died. I was weak! They said she was a good for nothing mother because she was dead. If I was strong like your pathetic team she would still be alive and I wouldn't be getting beat, I wouldn't be getting called names and being called a freak every fucking second of the day! I'm worthless. I'm pathetic! I'm a sorry ass for nothing human being...IM A FUCKING TITAN ...ONE OF THOSE BASTARDS THAT KILLED MY MOM ... HOW COULD I BE LIVING IN THIS HELL HOLE KILL ME IF YOU WISH I DONT CARE ANYMORE!" I blurted out. Levi's expression didn't change. Not even once.

I was a sobbing mess.

I'm weak. I'm a sorry ass human being, I can't do shit right in this world. I'm a freak.

I'm. . .One of them.