"Amanda! Amanda! Are you okay?" My mom yells from the other side of the bathroom door.

I've been here since the miserable moment, I can't even function. All I want is to be alone, not to be interrupted by anyone or anything. I'm so broken, I don't think I can even fix myself. I've had enough, all these knots is too much to be handled by someone alone.

"I'm fine." I try to manage to speak, It sounds broken just like how I feel right now.

"Amy we can talk about this. Just get out of your bathroom." My mom begs.

No matter how much I want to comply my mom, I can't. I'm too weak to function, I'm too broken to function and I'm too mad to function.

"Fine." I tell my mom. My parents has no clue about what happened last night, they just got worried when I enter our front door and they saw me crestfallen.

By the time I get out of the tub my knees are wobbly, my head is pounding like hell, my hair is almost dry and my body looks disgusting due of the amount of water my body has taken.

I stand in front of the massive mirror in my bathroom and ask myself "am I not enough? Am I boring? Am I not keeping him occupied? What am I lacking of? Why does he have to look for someone else when he got me all the time?" All these unanswered questions keeps running in my mind, it hurts me emotionally. Can I even escape from this pain?

I grab a leggings from my dresser and an oversized sweater, It's fall and It's getting cold here in New York. I'm not feeling any stylish right now and I don't feel broken either now, I feel numb.

I lay down on my bed and wrapped the duvet around my body, I have no plans today, all I need is to sleep and get away from reality.

..

I wake up and the sun is setting, It's nearly evening. I look across my room and I saw Andrea sitting on the couch she looks so worried, and I have no idea why.

"Hey." She manage to smile. "Hey." I croaked. My voice sounds broken still, how long will it take to get my voice back?

She walks closer to me and sit on the edge of my bed. She looks at me for good couple seconds and turn her looks back to her fingers that are doing some kind of actions.

She looks at me back and says "Look, I'm sorry for all that happened last night." She apologizes which I don't get because she didn't do anything but where were her that time?

"Shh. You don't have to apologize. You didn't do anything, It isn't your fault that it happened." I tell her.

"Maybe if I and Cobi didn't leave the room, The slut will not be with Nash," She tells. I look at her with confusion, did she send the girl to be with Nash? "and No, I didn't send the girl to Nash, That would be the dumbest Andrea, If I ever did that." She answers my thoughts and chuckles afterwards.

"If that's the case, then you don't have anything to apologize for. You're all good." I tell her.

She crawl towards me and give me a hug, a hug so tight that I can barely breathe.

After a couple of seconds, she lets go and look straight into my eyes. "That bitch should know who she's bumping. I want to kill that bitch, but No, I'm just going to hurt her emotionally and physically, really, really bad." She smirks, I don't doubt for a second that she would do just that.

I'm not in favor of what Andrea's plans are because, I feel bad for that girl but at the same time I feel bad for myself too due of Nash who cheated on me with a random girl while I'm being loyal as hell to him.

"You don't have to do that." I tell her.

"Then should I just?..." She wiggles her eyebrows and at this moment I know what she's planning, she's planning to embarassed that girl.

We laugh and it made me realize that laughing doesn't made me forget everything that makes me inconsolable. The pain somehow always finds a way to shut me into this pain like a prisoner, It's depressing.

My mouth that was widely open due of laughter turns into a frown all of a sudden.

"Hey, please don't be sad. Nash is a fucking douchebag! It's his lost not yours." She says while rubbing my back, comforting me, trying to lessen the pain.

"Stop, cursing. My mom is just downstairs." I remind her.

"Okay so what are your plans with Nash now? You should do something brutal." She winks. She's probably just saying those words because she wants me to laugh, her suggestions are stupid for me to be handled right now.

"You know, I'm not that kind of girl." I answered her suggestion but not her question, because I don't know what's the answer to that question or is there even an answer to that question? I don't know if we're still together, I don't know if we still love each other and I don't know if he loves me still because to me he's still the person that owns my heart but I guess his isn't mine anymore.

"Amy, you're so dumb if you give him an another chance." She looks at me straight into my eyes, I don't want to have this conversation right now.

"I'm so broken, Andrea. I don't know if I can even fix myself." I open up. I'm extremely hurt emotionally and physically especially when Nash didn't even ran after me.

"I know Amy. Want to unwind?" She asks. Unwinding sounds good to me, I hope it can help my wounds heal quickly.

"Of course I do." I tell her. I want to unwind to get the pain away or to at least lessen the pain.

"We have a cottage at Canandaigua, we can stay there for a week for you to forget all the miserable things." She smirks.

"Canandaigua is too far, it's like a 6 hours drive from here." I tell her, Canandaigua sounds fun, I've been to the Lopez's cottage before and It's massive. I had so much fun in there. We went speed boating, jet skiing and more. I love that place, it's relaxing but I hope relaxing can heal my wounds inside.

"So? It's semestral break, we have a week to unwind." She reminds me.

"I know, but your cottage is too huge to be stayed by only two persons." I tell her. Not because I hate big houses, but because that house is extremely huge, It's a three story cottage and It's pretty creepy if there is only two persons in that cottage.

"Let's invite the squad then," she says and immediately grab her phone to text our friends. "Done, I've already sent the messages. Except for Nash."

"Good." I response.

After a good couple minutes of laughter due of Andrea's knock knock jokes. Her phone beats countless times.

Andrea's lame jokes helps me a lot during that time I feel like I escaped the pain but when it stops for her to check her phone the pain fetches me.

"Okay. Shaine, James, Alissa, Casey, Daniel and Cobi are coming and Cobi's asking if he can bring Cameron. I don't understand why Cobi wants Cameron to come with us he's like two years older than us, so yeah can he come or not?" She looks at me waiting for my permission.

"Age doesn't matter and of course Cam can come. He's the one who delivers me safely in this house last night." I didn't have a car last night, so when the miserable moment happened Cameron was just leaning against the wall probably eavesdropping from I and Nash's convo last night and I don't know why, so when I was ranning towards the exit of the house Cameron ran after me and insisted to gave me a ride and Nash didn't.

She looks at me in shock. "Seriously?" To answer her question, I nodded. "Alright, we're all set." She grins.

"What car are we going to use? Only five people can fit my car." I explain to her.

"Well, the couple, Daniel and Alissa are going to use Daniel's car. They need some privacy, they make out a LOT." She smirks, enhancing the last word which makes me chuckle.

"What about us? The others?" I question.

"You guys have a van, duh!" She sass.

"Yes, but it's my mom's." I response and shake my head.

"Borrow it to her, use your brain bubba." She tells me.

"As if she's going to allow us." I whisper, hoping that she didn't heard me but unfortunately, she heard me.

"I can handle this, sit yo ass down. Imma talk to momma Earnshaw." She stands up and went to go look for my mom.

How she calls my mother makes me chuckle and much to my surprise talking to Andrea has lessen the pain in me but just a little bit.

I grab my phone from the bedside table only to find a thirty-four missed calls and fifty-eight unanswered text messages from Nash. He's begging me to take him back and insisting me to let him explain, but there's nothing to explain, I saw everything with my two eyes.

I deleted all of my notifs and turn off my phone, I'm not going to let him destroy mine and my friends getaway but seeing Nash in my notifs makes the knife in my stomach twist.

Andrea comes back with a huge smile spreaded onto her face, she raises her hand and wiggle my mom's car keys. "Pack your things, honey. We're leaving tonight."

Right after Andrea says her sentence, I run towards my closet ang grab my duffle bag. I feel so excited about this, I wasn't expecting a getaway with my friends but here I am packing my things for it. I shove my clothes into my duffle bag without folding it. The only clothes I brought are my casual clothes and bathing suits, The cottage are nearby the lake.

I grab my duffel bag and throw it onto my bed and it hits Andrea unexpectedly which makes me burst into laughter. "You bitch!" She cuss.

I walk back to my closet and changed my clothes, I wear a jeans, black cami and a parka and afterwards I walk back to my bedroom.

"Aren't you going to pack your things?" I question Andrea and she laughs really loud. "I planned all of this." She says.

"Oh you smart ass." I remark.

"Let's go!" She yells and soon stands up from my bed.

I grab my duffle bag and my purse that has my essentials in it and follows Andrea downstairs.

I saw my Mom watching TV, she's probably waiting for my Dad.

"Here she is Mrs. Earnshaw. I made her smile." Andrea tells my mom and points at me.

"Thank you." My mom response. I give my mom a smile.

"We're going now. Mrs. Earnshaw. Thanks for letting us borrow your van and don't worry I'll bring it back safe and sound." Andrea assures my mom which makes me chuckle for some reason.

"Anything for my daughter." She says and smiles at us. I walk towards my mom and whisper "I love you." While we're wrapped in each others arms.

Before heading out of the house, we exchange our goodbyes and I love yous. It isn't surprising that Andrea loves my mom. Andrea is like my sister.

Andrea run to their house to get her things while I'm driving the van out of the driveway.

By the time the van's out of the driveway Andrea arrives and shove her things at the back of the van.

"That was quick." I remark as soon as Andrea hopped in of the van.

"Let's do this, shall we?" She smirks and I smile at her.

I start to drive and make our way to fetch our friends. This is going to be the best semestral break!